I have been teaching for 11 years now. At first I really enjoyed it but I’ve gradually become more and more disillusioned which I know is not unusual! It started when our old HT left and a new one came in who changed things generally for the worse: increased class sizes, poor behaviour management for example. I became quite stressed at the daily struggle of dealing with challenging behaviour such as children throwing chairs around and it affected my health. I developed psariosis and then shingles then frozen shoulder (s).
I knew something had to change so I asked to go part time as I still liked some aspects of the school such as the other staff but the HT was not agreeable. I therefore gambled on moving schools and I am now working in a jobshare which should be the answer but it doesn’t feel that way.
Even though I am part time I find it difficult to switch off, i don’t feel I have ever particularly settled into my new school even though I have been there 2 years. There have been a few incidents at this school: the HT was extremely rude to me but she did apologise, I have had issues with my TA and issues with the job share. it feels a very cliquey school. Normally I have always got on with people at wherever I have worked.
I also am very unhappy as there is a constant stream of new initiatives throughout the year. The latest example is we have had a new scheme of work introduced this week. It was presented to us the day before half term we have had no training and am meant to start teaching it this week. There is also the constant scrutiny, drop in etc which I should be used to but I’m not.
Part time teaching was going to be the answer I thought but it’s not. I really don’t know whether to try to carry on for a few more years or to try to get a job out of teaching. The problem is I really feel my confidence has been eroded after years of feeling I’m never quite good enough and I worry that I won’t get a job out of teaching or even if I can face the whole job application process. Feeling tearful about it and sick of thinking about it.
The way I see it I have 3 options: keep going telling myself it’s not that bad.
Try for another teaching job.
Get a job out of teaching.
I guess I am in a fortunate position in that my dh is working in a relatively well paid job but I have always worked and had my own money.
Is anyone else in the same boat or has been? Fed up of feeling like this.
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Don’t know if I can carry on teaching
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hollytom · 04/03/2018 20:36
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