I've been on MN for years, but haven't been on the staff room threads before. Maybe occassionally if one of the threads is active. I name changed fairly recently too.
I don't want to give too much away, but one of my pupils has died . I knew her well and saw her everyday that I was in school.
I feel sorry for family and her friends, for her year group... but most of all for her. She was so young and I just can't believe she's gone.
I just can't stop thinking about her. It is on my mind constantly and every time my DH or kids come to hug me I feel the sadness well up inside me and the tears start to spill. I can't sleep. I just keep crying and crying.
When I got the news I actually cried out. It was horrific. Yet others in a similar situation were able to hold it together and don't seem to be nearly as affected as I am.
I think what's making it more difficult is that I'm not working at my school at the moment.
Other teachers seem to be able to distance themselves, be professional and soldier on. I'm not particularly young and I've experienced grief in many forms before. I don't usually show emotion, but this has deeply affected me.
I am just completely devastated.
When I've told a couple of my friends what's happened, they just sigh and then start chatting about what they are having for dinner.
Or people will ask if I heard about 'that girl' as if it's someone from the other side of the world that they read about in the news.
I suppose in this profession, a bit like doctors and nurses, you're not supposed to have relationships/ feelings for your patients/pupils.
I posted this here because I am hoping that some of you will understand.
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MrsMandS · 29/10/2016 11:18
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