I haven't slept since September(13 Posts)
Sorry if I sound naïve. Why SO much work? What is your position? How much time do you spend per day or week on each type of task?
Do you mean that you are actually working every hour, or do you mean that your mind is whirling with worries about your job so you don't sleep?
You sound ill, please get some help from your doctor.
I'm a lecturer, I know exactly what you mean. It's the whirly brain thing, there is always something else to do and the middle of the night is when the brain decides to start regurgitating the list. I find it helpful to write a list in the night when the things occur to me and then I drop off. In the light of the morning, the list seems much more manageable.
I feel like I haven't slept properly since September, either. I've never been so tired and I've been doing this job for close to a decade by now. Changed schools this year and it should have been a little easier, but it's the opposite. New schools' marking expectations are completely against any guidance (and that includes bloody Ofsted) but I appear to be the only person in the whole place, who sees it that way. SLT tell me that we are just being "rigorous"...as if it's something I should be taking some special kind of pride in. I believe the word "ridiculous" is a lot more suitable...
I'm also not a great friend of being micromanaged. I feel like I'm reliving my PGCE year, of which 6 months were a special sort of hell I had no intention of experiencing ever again.
I intend to leave them to their rigorously demotivating antics by the summer holidays at the latest. I'm too old (and dare I say it...too bloody good at my job) for this...
Catching up on a lot of sleep this holiday...
silly apostrophe has moved by itself...school's
Go to your doctor and tell him/her in detail.
21 years it took, but it broke me in the end. Along the way, brain haemorrhage, heart disease, depression, and...insanity.
Get it under control or get out, for your own sake.
The job has got mad in so many schools. Doctors and counsellors see a lot of teachers...
I get the mind whirling too; it´s like I can rarely stop thinking about school.
Divide up the holiday into "rest" days and "work" days, hopefully with more of the former. On "work" days, set yourself a realistic number of specific tasks to get done in, say, 4 hours, allow yourself an extra 20 or 30 minutes overspill, then stop and write down what you need to do on the next "work" day.
I find that exercising and going for a massage help me to feel relaxed. Drinking alcohol doesn´t help beyond the odd single glass of wine accompanied by some delicious food.
Also try to socialise with friends who aren´t teachers, and not to talk about work outside of work. I know it´s easier said than done! Please don´t think I´m giving this advice as a magic fix-all.
Yes I had this. I was teaching, going to bed early exhausted, waking at 3am with whirling worried thoughts that reached a crushendo of horribleness, so I'd get up and make tea, read my kindle, drop off again at around 5.30 for half hour, then up for work feeling megash#%, fuelled by caffeine all day. Sometimes the insomnia'd be just once a week or once a fortnight, sometimes 3x a week. That's when you really start going mad. Once I called in late arriving as first lesson about to start!
Now I drink redbush, cycle to work, cut corners by doing things like peer assessment so marking's manageable, go to bed much later after a hot bath. It's all gradually helping. Still some way to go; a v bad lesson or a difficult parent will trigger it off again. The work involved in teaching NEVER gets done, so do what is essentail and reasonable. Do not stay at school late every night. It's really important to make time for friends, a teaching life is better, happier, more balanced and 'doable' after a laugh with mates. Make time for you. Make time to relax and time to exercise - whatever you like, walking, swimming, yoga or Pilates for relaxation. Tell your line mgr you need advice about work life balance. Ask what he/ she does, if they're supportive, you could even fess- up and admit you're struggling if you think they'd back you. I feel for you, very best of luck and hey, teaching's important but you're not finding the cure for cancer, know what I mean?!?!
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