I've started to feel like I should go back to work. Money isn't a problem, and my husband doesn't mind what I do, but I miss the camaraderie of working. I worked full time up until 2 years ago, but found I couldn't physically fit in the hours required for the job, and the hours I wanted to spend with my kids. But now my youngest has moved into year 1, so I've had a year of doing the school runs, going to all the stuff they put on at school (I missed everything with my older DD - husband went and filmed it, but it wasn't the same). The problem is, my older DD has struggled to make friends all through school (now in year 6), but over the last couple of years while I've been off, she's become part of a lovely circle of friends - I've been able to keep up contact with parents, and most importantly, she now walks to school with some of them, which she loves doing - this would have to go if I went back to work, because she'd have to go to childcare (all the other parents work to some degree or another, and stay with GPs or whatever, so not an option to go round to their house - they wouldn't want to do it full-time). There's also stuff on at the school about once a fortnight, which I'd have to miss, and I'd rather not. The only thing I can think is to do supply teaching, but keep it to day-to-day work, or perhaps even state that I am only available 2 days a week or something (eg. Monday, Tuesday). I've just signed up to some agencies, and since I teach a shortage subject, they are already pressurising me into taking long term, full-time contracts to cover sickness, maternity leave etc. At first I thought it would be OK, because after each long term stint, I could have a couple of months off, but the more I think about it the more I don't think this would work - I'd still be tied in, and would miss a ton of stuff at school. Part of me would love to get stuck in to one of these long term contracts, but then I know it would take over family life, so then I brain flip the other way, and think maybe I'm better off forgetting about going back to work for a while - I like my freedom too much. Or then I think maybe doing bits of supply would suit, just to give me a taster of work again. Or am I just being a wimp, and all of this indecision is just because I'm scared of going back to work after 2 years out? Am I just overly pandering to my older DD who wants to walk to and from school with her friends - should I just make her suck it up? - I would if I needed the money, but we don't so should I put the needs/wants of my children first? Aaargh!! What to do!?? Sorry, this post is far too long!
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