I am boring my friends now I think but I lost my beautiful 8 year old cat Ruby 5 weeks ago. She was hit by a car and I only knew because I put posters up/used cat lost sites and talked to/leafleted neighbours. Ruby was a little adventurer and had gone missing before for a few days (she used to be a street cat that I took in coz her first owners were cruel and neglectful) but she always came back. This time she didn't and I m haunted by the fact she was found in a place I probably walked past several times calling her. Why didn't I look more closely in bushes/long grass? I hate thinking she could have been hit and lying in pain without me knowing. The vet who called me said it was almost certainly instant but she might have just said that to help me as I was crying so much?
Ruby was my baby I adored her and she loved me back. What really hurts is knowing she had a rotten life being starved and abused and having 3 litters of kittens before I got her(she chose me, jumped in my car one night and befriended me). I have a 14 year old cat who has been spoilt since birth and I just wish I could have had Ruby as a kitten too. I now have a 7 month old kitten I rescued who looks just like Ruby and she's helping but I can't get the guilt out of my head and I know she would have been miserable locked inside but I keep thinking I am the one who let her out that night. I keep crying. My heart actually hurts thinking I will never see her again.
Sorry for the long post but my friends are sick of listening and I m sure they think it's only a cat and as I have Ellie now I should forget Ruby.
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snorkmaiden68 · 30/10/2017 01:22
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