I've been worried about my beautiful boy since the end of April, when he started to show signs of being badly co-ordinated and losing his balance. I took him to the vet who did bloods to rule out anaemia, kidney and thyroid problems, but they came back clear. We left it a bit longer, and the cat had good days and bad days, and after a run of a few bad days I took him back. The vet did more blood tests for things that I can't remember now (possibly FELV, FIP, toxiplasmosis etc) but again they all came back clear. After several trips, he'd lost 400g. All along the vet told me he thought it was neurological, but did the blood tests to rule out any other possibilities. Given the history, this seemed the most likely explanation.
I lost his sister to a neurological condition in 2015. I didn't notice the symptoms with her, but thinking back, they were the same - banging into things, being wobbly, not able to jump up with accuracy any more. She stopped eating and drinking and ended up being quite dehydrated, was put on a drip and started to make some improvement. Sadly, she had a big fit whilst she was being kept in on the drip, and this left her blind. I had to make the decision to have her put to sleep. I was heartbroken and still miss her terribly.
On Saturday evening, my boy cat kept stretching his neck back and reaching out with his front legs. He lost control of his back legs and they were floppy whilst I was cuddling him. While I was on the phone to the vet, he stretched his head back again and started pedaling and panting. It was very scary to watch. The vet kept me calm during the episode and said that he would worry about leaving me to cope with the cat during the night, and that with the symptoms I had described, he said that he was suffering. The vet very kindly met me at the surgery within ten minutes, and gently put my beautiful 12-year-old cat to sleep. I can't get the images of my poor boy out of my head as he lay on the table in the surgery.
I'm not sure how I got through yesterday with the DC and their difficult questions about heaven - my DS(3) asked where the cat was and when I said he'd died and was in heaven, DS asked where heaven is. I told him it's up in the sky and he asked if you get there in a rocket . Then DD(7) heard me say no, then she asked how DID he get to heaven. Gosh, it's so hard to answer some of their questions!
Today has been really hard with the DC at school and DH at work. The house is quiet and empty. I had to call the pet crematorium and make arrangements to have my cat collected from the vet and to talk through the individual cremation process. I said that I'd like to take a rose in to put with my beautiful cat tomorrow, as this is what I did for his sister. He'll also be cremated with his favourite blanket, just as his sister was. We will have his ashes in a photograph frame with a discreet box at the back, so that he can be with us indoors with a lovely photo of him.
I want to take a gift in for the vet as a token of my appreciation for the kind and compassionate way that he treated my cat, and especially for going out of his way on a Saturday evening to open the surgery for us. I don't know anything about him, other than he's mid-30s. I don't really want to give a voucher with a monetary value for fear of it coming across as being too much/too little. Please could you give me some suggestions as to what I could get for him - my mind's blank and I'm not really thinking properly at the moment.
I'm sorry that this is so long, I hadn't intended it to be! I've actually found it quite therapeutic to write it all down - especially as it is so difficult to talk about it without getting horribly upset. I miss him terribly but I know that letting him go was the kindest thing, and that it was the right time. When I can bear to look at his photographs, I will post a photo of my gorgeous boy.
Sleep well, my wonderful pussy cat. I love you so much
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My darling 12-year-old boy has gone. I'm distraught.
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Dolceandgabbana14 · 19/06/2017 21:15
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