I am torn at the moment. And I feel horrendous.
I have a 16 year old Staffie who was in the summer diagnosed with kidney disease. She was stage 2/3 and the first thing we noticed was that she was drinking a lot which we put down to the heat we had over the summer.
We have done everything the vets have suggested.
She is on fortekor, I cook her a renal diet and give her supplements.
She was doing okay not as sprightly as she once was but not surprising considering her age.
Despite everything we have been doing her bloods keep showing progression and no stabilising the disease. In fact her last bloods showed that she now also has potential problems with her liver and a increased calcium which the vet says could be an underlying malignancy. We refused any further tests and decided just to keep her comfortable at home.
The past few days she has been quiet, she has loose bowels and just sleeps all of the time. We are having to tempt her to eat and she is drinking so much water.
When she goes outside to the garden she stands looking lost and forlorn. She always used to be a run out, wee and back in as quick as she could kind of girl.
She sleeps with me and last night she wet the bed and was lay in her own wee 
This has happened before but something just seems different this time and I think she is going downhill.
I've called into work and was about to call the vets and ask for a home visit to let her go and she wont get better, she is terminal and I don't want her to suffer. Despite all that I have written I do not think she is suffering.
However what I'm finding really conflicting and is making me think im doing the wrong thing is that she still gets so excited to see us.
Yesterday my eldest dc came home and she was like a puppy again. Running all over the place and jumping.
It is short lived and she was back on her bed but I just hate to think she is still happy and I'm calling it. I'm dreading the vet getting her and her jumping up to greet her.
What can I do? I am upset, yet resigned, frightened yet relieved, heartbroken but proud and honoured that I have had her so long.
I don't want it to be a second too late
But equally I don't want it to be a second too early.
If you're worried about your pet's health, please speak to a vet or qualified professional.
The doghouse
I think today is the day. Worried I'm not making the right choice.
Carrotcakeforbreakfast · 03/01/2020 08:43
I'm so sorry. Seeing a pet failing is so heartbreaking. I had to put my dog down a few years ago and it was the most difficult thing I had to go through. What got me through is acknowledging that his quality of life is deteriorating and not improving.
Ask yourself this question: how is her quality of life right now?
It's not an easy choice, but just know that your pup has lived a lovely long life with you and your family and you did all you could to give her a happy life. 
When you know you know and the fact that you have written this post means in your heart of hearts you know. Repay all those years of kindness and loyalty and do the one thing you can for your DDog. It's heartbreaking I know 
Vet nurse here. Over the years I have seen many many people regret leaving making this decision too late, and look back knowing they kept their dear friend hanging on for too long because they were so scared to go through the awful pain of losing them. I've recently had to make this decision for my own beloved pet and I won't lie, the grief is horrendous and almost overwhelming. I'm so sorry that you have to do this. Personally one of my "cut off" points is if they become incontinent, not only is it wet smelly and sore for them but our good boys and girls are so ashamed of having wet themselves inside, they know they mustn't toilet inside and they can get quite distressed knowing that they have, so for me if they're distressed by it then the decision to let them keep their dignity should be made soon.
As a rule I would say that if you're considering putting a pet to sleep and worried about whether it's the right thing to do then it probably is - only loving devoted owners would be losing sleep over this decision. How lovely that you have such a nice memory of her with your DC to keep
This is the company op cloud9vets.co.uk/vet-services/in-home-pet-euthanasia/
You've made the right decision, however heartbreaking it is.
Thinking of you
It is the most horrendous thing you will have to do but it’s also the last thing you need to do for her as her loving mum and friend.
You will have done so much for her in her long life and this is the final thing...giving her peace and rest. Sending you hugs
Very sad for you. Sounds like the right thing though. Better a day too early than a day too late. It shows how much you love her
Sorry
From what you've said you are doing the right thing, it's very hard.
OP you're doing the right thing.
I lost my old girl coming up 2 years ago and if I'm honest we left it a week too long. She was like yours - occasional bursts of excitement but more bad days than good and truthfully the outbursts I always felt were "to please us".
DH wouldn't take her so we waited but she went downhill fast (literally less that 12hrs) and I spent her last night sitting up with her because she couldn't get up anymore.
The vet came out in the morning and while I don't believe she suffered in pain she had definitely had enough.
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