Ddog died nearly 7 months ago, and I’m lying here in floods of tears. The fact that he’s not here anymore completely breaks me. I just don’t know how to cope with it.
Some days are better than others but I have ME, and since ddog died I’ve been really bad with it. I think those two things combined have really affected my MH and I just can’t find the energy or feel enthusiastic about anything anymore.
He came to me in a dream today, I knew he was dead but if I concentrated really hard I could see him. I was taking him out for walks and people thought I was mad because he’s dead, but I could see him clear as day being his usual daft self. I want him to come back more in dreams because it’s the only time I can have with him now...but then I wake up and it all feels so raw again.
I’m really not functioning well without him. I just don’t know how the pain will ever stop. It seems to be getting worse with time, not better.
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I can’t get over the death of my dog
Islands81 · 07/04/2019 01:31
Thank you. Maybe one day I’ll be ready for another dog, but I can’t imagine ever finding that connection again. He was one of a kind (not just my opinion, everyone used to say it 
). We went through so much together, we could talk without needing words. He was there everywhere I went for 14 years. I love all dogs but to be honest just about every other dog I know, I’m glad I don’t own! I don’t just want ‘a dog’, I want MY dog. And I know that’s not possible. Not sure if I’m making sense here.
I'm so sorry for your loss. Dogs are incredible creatures, and I think the hole they leave behind when we lose them is massively underestimated. They are such a huge part of our lives, and so important to us, it's only natural that they leave us devastated when we lose them.
Have you tried the Blue Cross pet bereavement line? They might be able to help you. I've not got personal experience of the service, but it might be worth a try?
Do you want to talk about your lovely boy? I'd love to hear about him if you wanted to tell us more?
I am so sorry that you feel like this 
I wish I knew how to help.
Oh and he used to sit like a human more than a dog! He knew people thought it was cute so he’d do it to ramp up the attention if he felt it was lacking
Oh my goodness, he is gorgeous!! His character shines through in those photos - what a fab little chap!
My heart goes out to you because we lost our soul dog in January - again, he was a very, very unusual, very special dog, who came to us when we weren't looking and had such a bond with us. He never wanted anything to do with anyone else other than DH and me, and DS when he came along. He'd been badly treated and we were his sanctuary - we always said that he'd have been happiest if we lived on an island and never had to bother with anyone else! We lost him to kidney failure - we tried absolutely everything, but in the end we just couldn't get him to eat or drink and he had to be put to sleep a week to the day after my dad's funeral. We were broken. I've honestly never known grief like it.
We do have another dog now - we waited a couple of months and then I looked all through the rescue sites. Not one of the dogs had any impact on me because they weren't Archie, but a friend was fostering a cocker spaniel for a rescue and needed to move him on because he was bothering her cats, and my DS was so bereft without a dog, so we've ended up with him and he's lovely. I work from home because of illness, and without a dog to walk, I was going days and days without setting foot out of the house or talking to anyone other than DS and DH. It felt as if a piece of my identity had been ripped away - I'd always been 'the one with the dog'. Adopting Ed has done us all good - my DS adores him. The bond's not the same and it's very early days, but having him around has definitely helped and he's special in his own way.
Sorry - I'm rambling. Just wanted you to know that you're not alone in feeling this way. It would be good for you to talk to a specialist bereavement counsellor if the grief is still so disabling after all this time though 
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