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I lost my dog last night

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Greyhorses Tue 27-Jan-15 20:34:14

He was put to sleep in my arms aged 14, I had loved and cared for him since he was 6 weeks old.

I feel completley broken today. I didn't know I would feel like this and don't want to make too much of a fuss as people won't understand, but inside I am crushed.

Everywhere I go I am reminded of a huge empty space where he used to be, he was literally with me 24 hours a day and even came to work with me during the day so we were never really apart. He has seen me through some very tough times in my life and has been the one and only thing that has never ever let me down and would be as close to family as I have ever really known.

I have another dog who adored the older one and he is as sad as me, he learnt a lot from the old man.

Not sure what the point of this thread really is but it feels better to be able to talk about it with someone who might have gone through this before, I'm scared I am forgetting him already which is insane I know!!

ThatBloodyWoman Tue 27-Jan-15 20:39:11

I'm so sorry.
I think more people would understand than you think.
Its ok to feel so sad xxx

susiedaisy Tue 27-Jan-15 20:44:10

So so sorry to hear of your loss. We lost our precious JRT the same way, he was in my arms as he was pts and it absolutely broke me. Sending you lots of love and hugs. thanksthanks

turdfairynomore Tue 27-Jan-15 20:48:23

You were both so lucky to have each other. I feel for those who never know that bond that we can have with a dog. We know that their lives are short and that it will hurt when we lose them but somehow that pain is worth the trade off for what we gain by having them in our lives. Snuggle your other friend close. Thinking of you.

DoctorTwo Tue 27-Jan-15 20:49:01

I've only ever had one dog of my own, my then partner picked her and named her and I told her the dog was her responsibility. Fast forward a couple of weeks and clearly the dog is mine. When I got in from work she'd lie down on my feet, she walked to heel without a lead, but only for me, she growled at people I didn't like and was generally wonderful. Also, unlike the cat, she never tried to steal food off my plate at mealtime.

I still miss her now 15 years after she died. sad

RoseyHope Tue 27-Jan-15 20:49:23

I'm so sorry. flowers It's been just over a year since our Dalmatian was PTS; he was almost 15. Everything feels very empty for a time.
Like you I thought I shouldn't really talk about it because he was 'just a dog', but he was really my best mate. I still have stupid teary moments now that come out of the blue.
I think people who haven't had dogs wouldn't understand maybe, but we do.

Greyhorses Tue 27-Jan-15 20:54:31

Thankyou to all of you. It feels better to speak to others who understand- my friends and family are very much 'a dog is a dog' and I can't really speak to them about it without my feeling as if I'm boring them.

I can't actually believe he is gone, and embarrasingly it hurts more than I would have ever thought it could!

crapcrapcrapcarp Tue 27-Jan-15 20:55:54

Oh you poor thing sad it's the hardest thing, and it's true that some people don't understand. But we do.


OttiliaVonBCup Tue 27-Jan-15 21:11:46

My dog is big part of what makes my life.
Just trying to imagine him gone breaks my heart.

Sorry to hear about your dog, I really am.

MsAdorabelleDearheartVonLipwig Tue 27-Jan-15 21:48:01

We understand Greyhorses, unfortunately a lot of us have also been there very recently and we share your pain. Our lovely old boy was pts last month and I still can't quite believe he's gone. He was only eleven, which is about right for a working cocker but still far too early and we just weren't ready.

We're now looking around for our next dog, which seems so utterly wrong, because all I want is him, but I miss having a dog so much and we need the distraction. It gives me something to think about and look forward to.

Look after yourself. Grief can take a while, and these dog of ours are members of our family. flowers

frostyfingers Wed 28-Jan-15 08:44:33

It is incredibly hard, made harder I think by all the memories that accompany the pet - you've had him for 14 years, that's a long time and alot of memories. Grieve away, it does ease eventually but there's no need to rush yourself.

Poledra Wed 28-Jan-15 08:53:21

I think more people would understand than you think. I remember when we had my childhood dog put to sleep. My mum would have told you she was the least sentimental person ever, and it was just a dog. but when she went into work and was explaining why she was late, she found herself crying. He was 14, we'd had him since he was 6 months old, he was a big part of the family. My mum ended up being comforted by a colleague who was also in tears, as she had had her dog PTS a few months before.

I'm sorry he's gone flowers

MummyBtothree Wed 28-Jan-15 09:32:50

I know exactly how you feel and you are in my thoughts. We had to have our beloved 16 year old border collie but to sleep in October and we are still in pieces. Its literally been like losing a child as he too was with myself especially 24/7. We have experienced all kinds if emotions, including guilt. My husband has trouble sleeping as he keeps re-running the moment he passed on. I know exactly how you feel and send love xxx

JoffreyBaratheon Wed 28-Jan-15 11:37:37

Love to you, Greyhorses. So many of us here who have said goodbye to elderly dogs. 14 years is a huge part of anyone's life and during the toughest times, they are sometimes the best or only solace so of course we love them beyond all things. Be kind to yourself. Only time passing makes it bearable. I said goodbye to my 13 and a bit year old in September, and there is a huge, unfillable void (despite having had a puppy from two months to the day after she left). She died with her dad holding her, and me stroking her head - she had dementia and was out of it, really, months before, if I'm honest with myself. We were dithering about having her PTS all summer, and I was the last in the family to cave in and admit defeat. The pain is awful. Everyone who has ever had a much loved dog, of any age, will understand how you feel and has been there. It's the price we all pay for that immense love and joy. xxx

MrsPixieMoo Wed 28-Jan-15 11:39:47

I understand. I lost my beloved dog three years ago. You will never forget the love and friendship you shared and it's totally understandable to feel devastated at the moment.

MitchellMummy Wed 28-Jan-15 11:54:20

So sorry, know just how you feel. Also know what you mean about forgetting them (not that you ever do). When my last one died suddenly the pain got easier but then I sort of missed the time when it was 'this time last week we were enjoying a run in the field' etc. etc. Write down all the lovely things about your dog - habits, one off things that made you laugh etc. I find it therapeutic - and something to keep in their box along with all the other bits and pieces. x

YourBubzYourRulzHun Wed 28-Jan-15 12:03:57

I'm so sorry, that's so sad. I lost my dog December 2013 and I cried for 3 days. Couldn't eat at all. And I used to take him to school with me twice a day so everyone would ask where he was and I would just break down at the school blush
We had a puppy aswell so that made it easier as I didn't have to go round and pick up all the dogs toys and bowls, I could just leave them all where they were. Nobody thought I was crazy for being so upset (not that they said to my face anyway!) Everyone was very sympathetic and understanding.

MsAdorabelleDearheartVonLipwig Wed 28-Jan-15 13:04:57

A good friend of mine picked the dds up for me for a couple of days because I couldn't face the school run. I cry very easily and couldn't bear people continuously asking after him and me constantly crying at them.

Hope you're ok op.

ConfusedInBath Wed 28-Jan-15 14:13:21

I'm so sorry. Be kind to yourself. Cry and let it out. It hurts so

Greyhorses Wed 28-Jan-15 19:49:10

Thankyou everyone for your kind messages, I have read each and every one of them and have managed to collect his ashes today and feel better that he is 'home'
I don't think I will ever get over it but I hope I never forget him either.
Thanks again.

KiwiJude Wed 28-Jan-15 20:57:26

Big hugs Greyhorses, it's such a tough thing as they leave a huge hole in life. You never forget them.

flyinghogfish Wed 28-Jan-15 22:08:33

We said goodbye to our dear boy 2 weeks before Christmas, it hurt like he'll but I posted on here when I finally realised it was time to say goodbye, it really helped me get through it.
His ashes are still tucked up in his bed, along with his collar, lead, and bowls, sounds crazy but we can't quite let go yetsad
Anyway, what I am trying to say is take things at your own pace, take time to grieve, and cherish those memories and take comfort from the fact you found each other and enhanced each other's lives xx

MsAdorabelleDearheartVonLipwig Wed 28-Jan-15 22:27:54

Aww, hi flying, I think we spoke on a few threads at the time.

Those are lovely words. smile

andrea315 Wed 28-Jan-15 22:34:34

Just reading this makes me cry , I nearly lost my Ben last august but he pulled through I know we are living on borrowed time now and the thought of not having him devastates me your not alone we all treasure our fur babies ,I hope it becomes easier in time x

tkband3 Wed 28-Jan-15 22:38:13

I'm so sorry to hear this. We lost our beloved yorkie, Ben, nearly 2 weeks ago now. We're all still coming to terms with it - he was such a little thing, but the hole he's left in our lives is huge. I picked up his ashes today and fell to bits at the vet.

We were so lucky to have him - he was a really special dog, but his time had come and we take comfort from the fact that he didn't suffer too badly...he had kidney disease but we didn't let it get to the point where he was really struggling as we didn't want that for him.

As previous posters have said, take time to grieve - you have lost a dear member of your family. Be kind to yourself and remember the joy he brought you. Sending hugs flowers.

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