Vets at 6.15.....

[Signet2012]

And I'm expecting to be coming home alone.
Poor boy has being getting worse and now the bad days outweigh the good 6:1.

I'm trying to be brave to keep him from being frightened but my heart is breaking. He has been my best friend, I'm going to be so sorry to see him go but I can't watch him suffer any more. It would be wrong. I'm keeping him for me not in his best interests.

:(

[YulePutTatOnMyChristmasTree]

Aww I'm sorry

It is so hard, but as he is suffering you are doing the right thing

[QueenOfCats]

I'm so sorry

I had to do the same thing this year for my almost 16 year old Staffie boy - it was heartbreaking.

You are doing the kindest thing for him, going ahead even though it will be so hard for you.

Stay with him, he will know you are there.

Be kind to yourself, allow yourself time to grieve x

[bumpybecky]

I'm so sorry :(

[toomuchturkeyatendofthedinner]

I'm so so sorry.

It must be devastating, but you are being the best owner by realising that you need to help him for the last time now, and putting your needs second. Give him lots of cuddles. I'm sure his life has been a great one with you and he has known lots of love and fun times.

Will be thinking of you x x

[SecretSantaFix]

I'm sorry. He will know that you love him, and you don't want him hurting any more.

Worst decision in the world.

[tabulahrasa]

Is someone going with you?

[QueenOfCats]

Signet, thinking of you

[Signet2012]

Yes dp came with me. The vet said his throat was paralysed. It was quick and painless for him and we where there til he had gone

[FromEsme]

Oh OP, how sad. A good thing that it was quick, painless and with the people he loved.

[doglover]

Sending you an enormous cyber hug. We have this to come very soon and know how hard it is. You've given him all your love - he would ask for nothing more. xx

[justabowlofsteamformeplease]

Signet I am so so sorry for your loss, it's never long enough is it but remember all the good times, you did the right thing by him at the end, take care xxx

[ChickensHaveNoEyebrows]

So very sorry Signet x

[cocolepew]

So sorry

[PottedShrimp]

oh i am so sorry, xxx

[AfterEightMintyy]

Oh bless you all, you must be heartbroken .

[Lifeisontheup]

So sorry, but you put him first, remember all those good times.

[Signet2012]

Thanks everyone. I'm just reading up on what was wrong with him. It was mega esopharagus.(sp). Basically the nerve in his throat had gone causing water and food to pool in his throat not go into his stomach. Eventually it gets full and it all comes up.
Explains so much. My poor boy. Can't help but think I should have took him weeks ago.

My pfb was both three months ago and his condition which had been up and down but mainly up suddenly got worse. He began to withdraw and wasn't playing tug or eating properly. We put it down to him sulking because of dd as he is a rather spoilt dog.

Then the vomiting started. Again, he is probe to vomiting if he is upset so plenty of cuddles and fussing. I did begin to think that it was something more. He had a growth on his underbelly which made me think cancer. I didn't take him to the bets because he would have a bad day but then pick up a bit. I was expecting him to rally like he usually does.

In the last fortnight I just looked at him and knew it was something more. Each day he has Seemed worse.

I just feel now that I should of took him earlier. I should of trusted my gut. He has always rallied round and hated the vets do much I put it off. I knew if he had cancer I wouldn't treat him because he would be so scared and I would sooner just pts but knowing he was do poorly I just feel rotten that I didn't take him sooner.

The vet was lovely and reassured us but it doesn't stop me feeling sick.

The house is so quiet,

[Signet2012]

That's full of typos sorry

[PottedShrimp]

MrsD - I am so sorry about your dog too. Heartbreaking, but what a life to get to at least 15. xx

[OwlLady]

I'm sorry signet. Of course you feel guilty, it's a natural emotion :(

[Signet2012]

Sorry for your loss too mrs D.

Well onto the second day without him now. I am starting the big clean up. To get rid of all the hair he shed and keeping finding bones hid.

The house feels too empty and too quiet.
Keep stepping over where he should be laid and going to the cupboard for treats when I leave the house.

It really is horrible. Hoping this doesn't last too long. It doesn't help that I've only lived here such a short time (about 6 months) without him so I can't remember him not being here if that makes sense.

I honestly never thought it would be this hard! I'm usually very matter of fact and stoic!! Thank you for all your kind words though.

[CatWithKittens]

I'm so sorry - we know how difficult it is to do the kindest but hardest thing at a time like this. It will be a little time before you are able to remember all the good times and the joy you gave each other but I'm sure that was the case.

[OwlLady]

Of course it's hard. I was surprised at how upset i was too but you have had a companion for years and sometimes they are a better companion than humans, they give you unconditional love and it's your responsibility to make sure they are well looked after and safe. Of course it's sad, allow yourself to be sad. I think they live so long too that your life changes such a lot in the time you have them and they were on that journey with you and I am very pragmatic too, but losing my dog was really hard