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Cocaine in my life

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Tiddlypoo8 Sat 24-Dec-16 03:15:17

Hi there,
Need a bit of advice. I've been through a terrible year, and I've got in a spot of bother now..

- my husband if 11 years turned out to be a bigamist
- became single parent
- lost house
- lost car
- have had to change daughters schooling
- I suffer from PTSD and OCD severely

I turned to cocaine to cheer me up on recline faction from a friend and at first I could take or leave it. I don't feel I'm addicted, but I feel like if I'm extremely happy or very sad then I reach for it.

Any advice please?

BastardGoDarkly Sat 24-Dec-16 03:21:03

Really, the only advice is to stay away from it.

It will get so that you spend your bill money on it, because you just need to feel better for a while.

You've had a terrible time, I'm so sorry, but coke will bring you much much worse.

How often are you doing it?

Can you go back to your GP and explain you're not coping? (You don't have to mention the coke)

endofthelinefinally Sat 24-Dec-16 03:25:29

It will destroy your life and probably kill you in the end.

Get it out of your life now, while you still can.

Tiddlypoo8 Sun 25-Dec-16 04:47:36

For the last few days I've spent £150 a day. I don't usually spend this much. Unusually spend £20 a time.

I'm so ashamed. Want to delete the telephone number of person I get it from, so I can't get any-that's a big step for me X

Tiddlypoo8 Sun 25-Dec-16 04:48:56

I haven't yet deleted telephone number- should I?
I just think what if I need a bit

For instance today u got a little bit for Crimbo £40 worth, then got another £50 and then another £40 all in one night

reader77 Sun 25-Dec-16 04:52:50

If you really want to stop, delete the number.

Can you think of a healthier way to deal with difficult feelings?

Tiddlypoo8 Sun 25-Dec-16 04:53:30

Just deleted the number of the individual I buy from- this is really big for me

I can't get any now. That's good.

It's awful in a way how easy it is to obtain drugs. You ask for them & they're delivered in 10 mins- it's too easy and too expensive. But panicky that I've deleted the number but it's a big positive step.

Gingernaut Sun 25-Dec-16 05:00:55

Narcotics Anonymous


Talk to Frank


Cocaine has become a problem. You don't need it. No one needs it. You're self medicating with a Class A drug. Delete your dealer's number. Please.

Talk to your GP about a referral for your mental health problems.

Gingernaut Sun 25-Dec-16 05:01:51

Sorry took too long to post.

Well done for deleting that number.

reader77 Sun 25-Dec-16 05:07:19

Nice one. smile

NC1nightstand Sun 25-Dec-16 05:08:20

You need help and support to deal with this.
So simple yet absolutely massive!
You've done the first step by posting on here.
Lot's of options such as look up narcotics anonymous in your area and go to a meeting, go to your doctor and she/he can refer you to your local addiction unit.
Please don't suffer this alone you can recover and you have taken the first step and that is something to feel really good about. fsmile

NC1nightstand Sun 25-Dec-16 05:29:43

My God, I am so slow at bloody typing in the time it took me to write that you've taken a massive step and Ginger has said very similar but with posh links to actual phone numbers!!! grin

Tiddlypoo8 Sun 25-Dec-16 21:33:27

First Coke free night... I'm doing it!!! :-)

BastardGoDarkly Sun 25-Dec-16 22:04:16

Christmas day too!!! Go Tiddly !!!! <Shakes pom poms>

Best present you could have given yourself!

I'm proud of you, keep going smile

BastardGoDarkly Sun 25-Dec-16 22:05:18

When I did drugs (I did a loooooot of drugs, for a loooooong time) Christmas was binge time, so honestly, you've done so well.

reader77 Sun 25-Dec-16 23:48:04

Well done! One day/night at a time, that's the way. ❤️

WynterBlossom Sun 25-Dec-16 23:54:28

Congratulations OP.

I haven't ever "dabbled" in drugs but have witnessed the devastating effect it can have on people & close family around them.

Keep it up! flowers

Tiddlypoo8 Mon 26-Dec-16 12:27:42

I did it- day 2...
It is hard but it's good I deleted my contacts- I literally have no way of getting any

thethoughtfox Mon 26-Dec-16 12:32:15

Reaching for drugs to manage feelings is bad news. Very soon it won't be a real choice you make any more. You know what you need to do x

TheCrowFromBelow Mon 26-Dec-16 13:54:27

Well done! Stick with it. Hard but for the best.

cocochanel21 Mon 26-Dec-16 14:04:32

Well done.
My DD always said she could stop taking drugs whenever she wanted. She couldn't do it.
3 years of hell followed she died last year in tragic circumstances she was only 23.
Drugs have destroyed my family's life.

BastardGoDarkly Mon 26-Dec-16 21:45:34

Oh coco I'm so very sorry to hear that x

endofthelinefinally Tue 27-Dec-16 07:04:24

Coco I am so sorry.
All those years of love and care.
It is heart breaking.

pinkypiecupcake Wed 28-Dec-16 05:18:57

I wasn't successful :-(
I had some after 2 days

pinkypiecupcake Wed 28-Dec-16 05:19:54

Gosh coco- I'm sorry Hun
Makes me determined and want to succeed

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