I'm tapering down with a plan to quit. I'm in so much pain. That is just cutting down. I am thinking of increasing my dose, not to what I was taking but just a bit more than I have been having the last three days because I am struggling to look after my daughter. I feel like such a waste of space. I'm on the verge of tears constantly. I've actually been secretly smoking to help me through it, dp would be so annoyed if he knew about the smoking.
I feel like I need something, some sort of crutch. I don't know why I'm like this. When I was younger I had a bit of an issue with cocaine, though it didn't get as bad as it could have. I used to drink, a lot too, but again it could have been a lot worse. I gave up smoking four years ago and I have smoked 50 cigarettes in secret over the last few days while dp is at work, not in front of my DD. I feel so ashamed buying them with her in the pushchair wth me. I don't know what l want from this thread really. I just have nobody to talk to.
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Iminpainanditsmyfault · 28/09/2016 19:32
Dp does not have a clue how much I was taking. He knows I am cutting down and struggling and keeps saying he is proud of me. 
If he only knew how much I was having I don't know what he'd say. About four years ago I took two (or nearly, my memory of it is a bit fuzzy) big boxes of nurofens in a few hours. He found out because I got ill. He found it really hard to understand. I have a good life now. My parents were both alcoholics.
Ohhh yes the stash. I finished my Diaz taper about a month before rehab thought I had and stashed a months worth. Shame!
OP.. Okay so you had a relapse.. We all have them.. I had quite a few before completely stopping.
The good thing is you aren't taking the strong stuff!
I will tell you though ibuprofen is just as dangerous as paracetamol and i too watched me paracetamol intake. Ibuprofen can cause all sorts of stumach issues.. Be careful not to OD on these.
I know how you are feeling. No way out? Can't see the light.. Aches, sweats, headaches. The list goes on.
I'll never judge anyone. Nobody has the right to do that. We all make mistakes. Lord knows I've made plenty.
You will make it. So for now put the fact you are smoking to one side and deal with the biggest issue.
Try nytol for sleeping issues and imoduim for toilet issues.
Also Try confiding in your GP depending on how nice they are. They may be able to give you stronger to sleep and also so valium or something on the days you really struggle.
Have you a round abouts amount you take daily? Maybe I can help you set some kind of taper plan? Writing here every day may help too. Don't give in stay strong.
OP, just wanted to say there are people out here who know how tough it is. I have a relative who has a long history of substance abuse (alcohol, solvents, illegal drugs). He was prescribed codeine for chronic back pain, and says that of all the drugs he's tried to come off, it is one of the hardest. I second Reaching's suggestion of confiding in your GP. If your GP is any good at all they will know how addictive codeine is and how many people, having been prescribed it for pain relief, find it really hard to come off. Good luck, and .
I have had stomach issues in the past caused by the ibuprofen. I know codeine phosphate is safer but I have such little willpower. The knowledge that the ibuprofen and paracetamol is harmful helps me limit what I take.
I really feel a lot less alone now. Thank you all.
The thing that is bothering me the most at the moment are the leg aches and sweats at night. I feel lethargic in the day. I have a bad back anyway (one of my excuses for taking it) but this has gone through the roof since cutting down. I will try and get some nytol for tonight. Thank you for the suggestion.
I have been trying to stick to my usual day routine but in reality dd has been watching a lot of television. I took her out this morning and we had a nice walk but I was really struggling with it.
I feel a lot more positive though despite the crying and whining on here! I feel like I'm really doing this. I have tried before but never so hard. I am so grateful to everyone who has commented.
After taking the nurofen plus alongside the 8mls cocodomals I now feel slightly more normal and able to cope. I am thinking of sticking to this dose, which is still a big reduction on what I was taking, for a few days at least. Any ideas when I should next reduce?
Sorry this is such a long post. My thoughts are sort of all over the place.
I too am majorly addicted to it. I buy it online from a legit pharmacy . It's 100 quid every two weeks.
I have never even took a single drug in my life but gp prescribed this and I got hooked. It made everything so much easier and gave me a pick me up to get jobs done. I quit cold turkey 3 years ago and it was horrendous for 5 days. I stayed off a year and vowed never to go back. Then my dad died last year and I started again. I cud kick myself ! I told my gp and they were great. Nothing was mentioned about ss . They just did a taper plan. I just went ct tho. Wish I'd never started again. X
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