I am not sure if this is the place to share this or not, but I feel like I need to let it all out and seek advice.
It is important to give you some back story. My dad passed away in 2014 which had a major effect on my life, obviously. I went through some serious depression and still have major anxiety as a result. It was after his death I decided to take more chances and live for myself. So, in 2015 I met a guy while on vacation in Mexico. It was magical. He was from Wisconsin in the USA and I from Pennsylvania. We hit it off and did the long distance thing for a couple months. Well, I got pregnant (even though I was on birth control) after three months of knowing him. I was not thrilled to say the least as it was clearly not the most ideal situation. We decided to have the baby and we would figure it out. I had a rough first tri-mester as I was across the country from him carrying a baby I was not thrilled about. When I went to go visit him for Christmas break, he informed me he had to tell me something. He began sobbing and informed me that a girl he had a one night stand with a year ago contacted him to inform him she had a baby and it was his. He had taken a paternity test to prove it. He also admitted to me that he had known in October but waited to tell me in December to ensure I was past the point for an abortion. I was floored and felt trapped. I flew back home to Pa and had a rough rest of my pregnancy with thoughts of him in Wisconson meeting his new baby as I am carrying his baby. It was rough for both of us. However, we decided to go forth and raise our child together.
He moved to Pennysylvania a month before our baby was due. He had worked out a situation with the mother of his other baby. I truly can say that I had to ignore the thoughts of that other baby while being pregnant to keep my stress down. My doctors recommended anxiety meds but I did not want to risk taking them. Our baby was born in July, 2016. She is the light of my life.
Our daughter will be 3 this July. We have often visited Wisconsin during which we see his other little girl as his parents take care of her every other weekend. They also bring her here a lot. It had taken me a while, but I was starting to finally feel better about the situation as it was a lot to take in and wrap my head around. We talked about how eventually the little girl would come stay with us over summers when she was old enough and we would consistently make trips and his family here to keep up the visitation. He was paying child support this whole time as well, and it was like we had everything finally worked out. I was in a happy spot, finally, whereas a year ago my therapist informed me he thought I had PTSD due to so many traumatic events in my life.
Well, just yesterday I was informed that the mother of the daughter in Wisconsin is possibly doing heroin and his parents are filing for temporary custody. This has me FLOORED again because it seems to me that eventually she would need to move in with us, and that is something that I am not mentally prepared for. I know it sounds selfish, but I am not only worried about our family situation. I am worried that this little girl who is being taken from her mother will then come across the country to live with us with none of the family she grew up with will end up having some major resentment and other issues. I feel helpless and do not know what to do. Sorry for such the long post. I needed to vent. I hope you do not think I am being selfish as I do not want this little girl to be in a bad situation. However, I worry that bringing her here will also have a negative effect on her and just don't know what is best.
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