Me and DP have been TTC for some time now. We've experienced a couple of losses and it's just been a heartbreaking experience.
I've been suffering from quite severe anxiety recently and it always seems to centre around my relationship.
This will probably sound incredibly silly but it's something I can't seem to shift at the moment.
I just feel utterly useless in comparison to DPs ex! He has 2 children with her. Both nearly 10 so quite some time ago. I feel inferior because I can't seem to give him a child like she could. It physically hurts to think about it.
I tell myself he must have loved her more because they experienced having a child together but then as I don't have my own I worry I'm just imagining everything with rose tinted glasses.
Logically I know they had their problems and I know DP was massively hurt by her but it worries me so much that he'll go back. He's never given me a reason to think this either but my head just won't stop torturing me about it.
I think they have such wonderful memories together of their children and it just makes me feel pathetic in comparison.
I have a great relationship with the SC. Weirdly I find it easy to be around them even when going through these horrible times. But I get some awful gut wrenching feeling that I'm not 'as good' as his ex because my body isn't working the way it should.
It's eating away at me and I feel so ridiculous.
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CakeAndTea1 · 17/08/2018 12:02
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