Just wondering if anyone has ever been here.
Me and DP are TTC our first. We are having problems (recurrent miscarriages). I am feel so low and hopeless.
My DP has 2 DC from a previous relationship. Now I will say that I do absolutely love them. They are part of my life and have been for some time. I wouldn't change them or wish them gone or anything like that.
But I don't know, it's so so so hard to watch DP with them at the moment. I'm so low about our situation and it feels like my heart is breaking when I see him play with them/cuddle them etc...
He is of course seeking comfort from his grief in his children and that's okay and I'm happy he has a refuge from this but it makes me feel so lonely. Like although we are going through this together we aren't completely on the same page.
It's painful to know he's had what we want together with someone else. Something which I don't seem to be able to give him again.
I feel terrible. I really do care for those children but right now I feel more calm and less hollow when they aren't here. I hope this passes. We have such a great relationship me and the kids and I don't want to see them as a reminder forever. I feel utterly horrible even thinking this way now.
I don't even know what I want from this thread really. Just feel so low.
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JuiceBox · 05/08/2018 18:56
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