DP moved into my home a few years ago, and his three DCs have come to us (that's me and my DS) regularly, about 40-50% of the time, since then.
It's had its ups, but more downs to be honest, and we have always said we couldn't carry on living on top of each other like this long-term and that we need separate spaces for us to thrive as a blended family/not-very-blended family into the future.
Partly we struggle with being piled into one open-plan space Friday to Monday every other weekend, especially in the winter. It's just too noisy - it makes my head feel like it's going to explode. The TV, the computer games, the fighting, the singing, the shouting, etc. I know they're mostly just being kids and the house isn't really fit for purpose in this respect, but it still overwhelms DS and me (we're more introverted than DP's kids).
But what's tipped me over the edge lately is DP's ex. She's always been difficult (incidentally I'm not an OW) but seems to have stooped to new lows. She's telling the DSCs negative things about my son (she doesn't know him!) - that he's spoilt, a brat, gets whatever he wants, that the DSCs' behaviour was better before they moved in with my DS, etc. Then they're coming to us and telling me, DP and DS all this.
I feel so, so angry and hurt. DS has had to adjust hugely - actually too much, I feel - to the change in household dynamic as it is, plus he is developing very early, so has his own difficulties with hormonal and emotional ups and downs at the moment. The very last thing he needs is his confidence knocked like this. He has his moments of challenging behaviour like all kids, sure, but both DP and I believe he's a fundamentally lovely kid and that any deterioration DP's ex has seen in the DSCs' behaviour is wholly unrelated to my DS.
But anyway, when the DSCs come over, where before I felt a bit weary at the prospect of an overstimulating weekend, now I feel dread. When they're here, I feel violated, vulnerable - as though they're scrutinising us to see if Mum's right; ferrying bits of 'evidence' back to her to evaluate. I absolutely can't bear it; I come over all primal, all fight-or-flight, like I want to have it out with them/their mum (silly idea and of course I won't) or just run away - or even not let them come. (They're coming later today. )
It is my house. I don't feel relaxed in my own home. I don't think DS feels relaxed here anymore, which worries and saddens me.
The house is such that, with a reasonable amount invested in it (£100,000 say), we could make it into a bigger home which could be lived in as two separate homes while we're all here, together. We could raise this cash by DP coming onto my mortgage, which he is happy to do without any equity share. So this is a real and tempting option. We feel that if we were to actually live in fully separate houses across town, we'd never see each other, given how often we have our respective children with us. So if we are going to be together as a couple, we need to find a way to live together but keep our families separate at the same time, IYSWIM.
I love DP. I trust DP. He's a good man. The problem for me is that by him coming on to the mortgage, even without equity, I feel even more bound to his ex-wife. I feel that because I can't ever know what trick she'll try next (and she can be really very nasty), I need to remain sufficiently independent for DS and I to be able to be free of all of them if it became just too much. I know that sounds fatalistic, but just reading the threads on here evidences how incredibly challenging step-families can be, so I feel we need to be able to plan for life to carry on smoothly for DS and me if the worst happens. And of course if DP and I had invested in the house together, I wouldn't have the cash to reduce the mortgage borrowing sufficiently to get it back in my name only.
Have any of you combined/would you combine your finances with your DP/DH - the father of your DSCs - or have you chosen to remain independent? What are the pitfalls? Or are there any in reality and I'm just being irrational? If we don't combine our finances to raise the money to adapt the house, what can we do? I love my home and don't intend to move to accommodate the repercussions of DP's ex's behaviour.
We need our living situation to be different but I'm just not sure what to do. Really very grateful for any thoughts/ideas/advice/general survival tips you might have. Thanks so much.
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Living all together not working. Should I combine finances with DP to modify my house to meet our needs?
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