DS (ASD) has been a fucking nightmare all morning today and I am so fucking fed up I want to scream. He has kicked off over every single thing that has not gone just perfectly all day and been totally and utterly disobedient on everything I have asked him to do. He has broken things, hit me, thrown stuff you name it.
I have taken deep breaths and started over and told him I love him and cuddled and done everything I can but he is just too much today.
I took him outside this morning to play in the garden as he really wanted to play in snow so he had to settle for frost. He was in his little garden car and refuses to pedal himself along he wants to be pushed I couldnt as I was feeding the rabbits. It just spiralled from there. He was screaming at me from across the garden I said I would be right there, just putting rabbit down etc and he has no patience ever so continued screaming the whole time he just wont give me a minute to get to him. He threw a huge fit and screamed at the top of his lungs. I dragged him inside. My neighbour on one side is a total bitch and I know she either thinks he is the devil child (as he always kicks off in the garden) or that I abuse him which devastates me as nothing could be further from the truth.
That is one tiny little example of what he has been like today. And the constant repetition.
"It's (DS's) money" "Its (DS's) money" "Its not Mama's money" "Its not Daddy's money" "Its (DS's) money" and repeat 20 more times.
He is just driving me mad
I know I have to be patient I know he cant help it but I am SO FED UP. I know its not his fault. I would just love to relax just once or not be shouted at or ordered around or screamed at or hit. I would like to just go in the garden and watch my child play while I cuddle a rabbit and then play with my child and then go inside happy. Oh well at least he didnt turn the hose on me this time.
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hereidrawtheline · 30/01/2009 10:00
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