Struggling with the quiet repetition

[StopPullingMyhair]

Hello,

Really struggling with everything today and posting in the hope I am not the only one who (often) has days like this.

My DS is 3 with GDD, non verbal and just taking first tentative steps. since I started sporadically posting on here a couple of years ago he has come a long long way and life has settled down into a new kind of normal. Except, I still find myself really really really struggling with it all.

Due to his delay he still has not much appropriate play and can only tolerate busy environments for a relatively short time, we still have only a small network as we became very isolated from the usual avenues of meeting people.

I am sick of people minimising his problems and what it's like to live with a child who is like a china doll to be around. With no diagnosis it is shocking how many people clearly think he will just catch up - the upshot being that I then drive myself mad thinking it must be me. It must be my utter shit parenting that is the cause, it's exhausting having this on my mind all the time.

Tomorrow I will run back to work for some respite and then beat myself up with guilt that I can't tolerate being at home with him, which is so sad.

Sorry I know I am massively rambling, but does this make sense to anyone - is it just me that struggles to cope with the emotional side of it all?

And just to give some context, it's a bad day today as I have once again had to chase three sets of bloody services who drag their heels responding and sorting things and am also really cross as settling him into his lovely SN school is proving tough. I had a sad dream about it all last night and it just set the tone for the day.

[Ineedmorepatience]

Sorry you are having such a tough time stop.

I can empathise with struggling to get services, it can really drag you down.

Try to get a break when you can, even if it is by going to work and be kind to yourself.

Ignore the people who say stupid things they are probably trying to find the right words in a misguided kind of way.

Keep coming on here to vent it really is the best place.

Good luck

[StopPullingMyhair]

Thank you Ineed, good advice. DH just got in so had a good blub which has relieved some stress x