Mareeya, I don't have anything useful to add or suggest I'm afraid - other than, I am always impressed with your wise words and knowledge on MNSN and to me, you sounds like someone who should trust themselves and their own judgement a bit more - but I'm honking for you.
Am feeling a bit more positive now. Moose, it's obviously one thing to dish out well-meaning advice to others and quite another to apply it to myself! Im sure you're right about trusting our own judgement though
Need to write out <I am my child's best and only advocate> 100 times, methinks.