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this is a bit rubbish of me, but i cant help it.(53 Posts)
Ds isnt strictly speaking a child, he is 21, but due to his aspergers he acts about 15. He is in his 3rd year at uni, but this year he went to live in at uni....
End of last month was my birthday.
DH reminded him. i got no card. nothing. In the end DH bought me a card and made him sign it a week late.
yesterday was mothers day. Again DH and DD reminded him.
i got no card. i got a text at 9.30 last night saying happy mothers day.
i am resigned to this but it hurts. He has a girlfriend and when she was feeling "a bit down" he went on the train to see her with a bunch of flowers. He can clearly do it.
i am the first person he calls when he needs something.
he has tried to call me tonight, and i just cannot answer the phone to him.
i dont want to argue or have a go at him.
but i cant speak to him either. im hurt. he seems to think so very little of me and yet, im off work at min with depression for the first time in my life, and some of the reason for that was him and trying to juggle his needs and demands with a stressful and demanding full time full on job. i cracked. i couldnt do it.
he has text now asking why im ignoring him.
ive text back saying im not ignoring him but im not answering phone tonight.
which is true.
am i being silly about this? to feel hurt by this? if he was the same with everyone it wouldnt bother me, but its just his family, who are his biggest support and staunchest advocates, who he ignores.
he manages to consider everyone elses feeling except ours.
and its made me feel a bit sad.
and i just cant answer the phone.
yes - i think thats what i figure. Or if he doesnt come home we can go there and take him out for a meal, do his shopping, spend some time with him there.
he is fine on his own really - he chose to live alone and not flat share.
when we are there his attention span is limited. He drifts off to computer land mid way through visits anyway....and at home i dont even see him (only hear him!)
he can come home for a few days at a time. probably better for us and him anyway.
i do have high expectations - just sometimes i forget his limitations.
he rang tonight. He was going to be home for a month over easter but has just said he needs to be at uni for one day a week even over the holidays - its a 2 1/2 hour round trip and if i do go back to work it means i wont be able to ferry him about.
he has said he will need to stay at uni.
ive got mixed feelings on that score - we get on way better when he isnt under my feet all day (and all night - he is totally nocturnal and does not know the meaning of the word "quiet" so i get quite stressed when he is home, and it would coincide with me going back to work so would add stress on top of stress....i cant get up at 5am when he is clattering around all night.
but i was looking forward to seeing him and i dont like the thought of him being alone in a studio flat for the whole holidays....
that said it does give me an opportunity to re do his bedroom. he has built in furniture that is way too large for the room so need to rip it all out, decorate and get him a new bed / desk. thats all he is getting in there - he just fills wardrobes with rubbish so i figure the less clutter the better....
'i kept wondering for months afterwards why he kept getting Virgin Atlantic flyers through the post with talk of air miles. it just never ever occurred to me that he hadnt gone to Kent like he said.'
Just as well you didn't know eh?
thanks, you all. i feel a bit better now. At least i have something to contribute to the speeches if he ever gets married......i do still have to pinch myself at the incredulity of what he did. I think he learned his lesson as he is still paying that trip off now.
She dumped him shortly after he got back to blighty.
I think with regards my birthday and mothers day it was just out of sight out of mind, and he still is very much a little boy, our relationship hasnt yet reached the adult to adult stage so i guess he just expects me to be the same mum who has always looked after his needs without ever having to think about mine.
i do expect too much from him sometimes, but i also needed to have the conversation with him about how not bothering with those things had made me feel.
Im glad you are feeling better
Can I just say the Seattle story is a LEGEND in my house
My Aspie DS thinks its amazing and if I tell him off he will say 'at least its not Seattle Mum'
luckily i didnt find out until 3 months after he came back. He told me a very plausible tale about going to stay with a friend from school who had gone to canterbury uni.
he even texted me daily. working out the time difference must have been a bit of a mare....
i kept wondering for months afterwards why he kept getting Virgin Atlantic flyers through the post with talk of air miles. it just never ever occurred to me that he hadnt gone to Kent like he said.
i found out 3 months later when i opened his bank statement by mistake and nearly died at the whopping overdraft. turned out he had missed his flight home and cocked up the hotel booking so ended up paying twice. So while he got there and back in one piece it wasnt exactly smooth going.....
i never quite worked out whether to laugh, cry, wollop him, or congratulate him.
Ooo, I do remember Seattle! Forgot it was your DS, Vic. Well, he's come on quite a bit since then, at least.
well, he rang tonight and said sorry.
i told him that his ignoring my birthday and then mothers day had hurt my feelings. He did seem genuinely sorry. I asked him how he would feel if i didnt bother with a birthday card or gift for him....He said being at uni he forgets what day it is and the weeks just go....
i can relate to that so ill let him off. for now i suppose i feel it because my only family are my DH and kids. So a lack of card was missed. however daft that sounds.
ah well. i was hurt and cheesed off totally for a couple of days but im over it now.
i got myself a treat. (some armani perfume which was on offer in house of fraser) so i feel indulged! (even though i bought it)
ill see what happens next year. (probably exactly the same....)!
Vicar, your DS hasn't just doen well by getting into uni and getting through uni, he's done some pretty fab things that prove he not only has a heart, but can have incredible presence of mind, while he's there.
about Seattle, mind!!!!
My middle one gives a dam about me not fighting anymore. She feels that I am being horrible to Dd1. The trouble is I have sheltered her from so much crap that she doesnt know half of it.
Oh well, life goes on.....and on......
Be kind to yourself merlin
Sorry you are soo fed up merlin I know what you mean about giving all you have to give.
I have absolutely no advice for you but I do know what its like.
My Dd1 has no diagnosis but I am pretty sure she has AS alongside ADHD although she is not as hyper as she used to be. I have fought for her for years and years but know I have run out of steam and am not fighting any more
The only good thing to happen recently is that she has upset many other family members who have always looked down their noses at me in the past and suddenly they are saying what a nightmare she is!
I have found the same as notme, Dd1 will avoid me if she knows I am pissed off with her because she doesnt comprehend why I am pissed off with her or what my reaction will be when she does come into contact with me.
I am trying really hard at the moment to remain very calm and to explain what it is that she is doing that is pissing me off but it isnt really having much effect.
Generally day to day it doesnt bother me as much as it used to because she doesnt live with us any more but there are times when things flare up and no matter how hard I try I cannot help her to understand that other people are effected by her behaviours.
Hey ho and so it goes on
Glad you are feeling chirpier today vicar
Nice to see you feel better. It can be be so hard sometimes can't it?
thanks everyone. i was just having a moment. im fine now. ive text him today, just to see what he is doing.
no reply yet though.
i will try to talk to him tonight. i need to explain rationally and factually why i was cheesed off without being cheesed off anymore.
deep down, i know the fact that he is doing well, is ok, is managing and is doing well at uni is much much more important (thanks to a friend who pm'd me...sometimes i need reminding! (you know who you are - you lurker!)
and trout thank you - he has some support at uni though he has trouble realising when he needs to access it....but yes, they can go on to do anything. he is fearless. he gives me heart failure sometimes (anyone remember him sneaking off to Seattle (yep. Seattle. USA. on his own. to meet a girl he met online...!!!!!!!!) while he told me he was in Kent???)
Lol... Can relate to the Dh present problem too!
God ..I've have some corkers from Dh. He bought me scented bin liners once. Honest to farking god! He wrapped them up too! Also ( amongst other gems) ... An ice cube tray that made ice cubes in the shape of the word " ice". ( wtf?)
God ...way WAY too many bad presents !
I try not to get insulted
Another pov here. My DH has AS and can act exactly like that. It has taken me a while but I have realised that that sort if behaviour has little to do with his love for me.
As a general rule, he hates emotionally charged situations as he can't read them well enough and he is scared to say the wrong thing. So he avoids them in the same way that your ds has decided to keep a low profile when he realised you are cheesed off.
But at the same time, my DH has told me before that he feels very bad to have hurt me, most of the time he doesn't even know why I felt hurt. Even when it just look blooming obvious to anyone else.
He is also finding looking for a present a nightmare as he finds it near impossible to get an idea of what I would enjoy. So would rather by pass everything, incl a card as he is so uncomfortable about it. Or willbiy something at the last minute, in desperation.
Maybe that's what is happening with your ds too?
Btw, don't look too much into your ds behaviour with his gf. DH was like this when we first met. But it didn't last that long and he quickly reverted to the sort of behaviour you are talking about. It's hard not to feel hurt. But remembering why he does.
Yes I'm seconding Polters post. I think you are farking amazing! Look what you did!!
He may not be thankful (and Lordy I get where you are coming from... I got a card that his dad made him write out under duress)... But bloody hell Vicar!, I am soo thankful for you. It makes me think .." Wow, it's really possible!... Ds could be living independently one day"
So thank you
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