Hi there!
my last thread has maybe gone so I've started this new one
I am now of the 'fxxk it' school of thought - I've been dealing with so much and have realised that really, most of this situation is actually out of my hands at the moment.
I had the worst panic attack ever on monday night...paramedics had to come and check me and everything
I had gone to bed but was restless, suddenly my heart just started racing like crazy, I could feel the thumping and hear it so loudly in my head...I thought I was going to have a heart attack...
it went on like this for 20 mins, trying to take deep breaths, etc and calm myself but it didn't work.
I got down the stairs, feeling very weird and awful...I phoned nhs24..they sent paramedics to me....I was so scared. I've never experienced a full on panic attack before so I was really worried about myself. I was so glad to see these guys and felt a bit daft once it was established I wasn't dying!!!...so scarey and such an awful feeling....they were so nice about it all and very supportive...even killed a huge spider on the wall for me!!
I need to step back from everything and just focus on my DS and supporting him. We both need the balance and peace. I'm not getting up every morning and having this awful battle scene between us, it's damaging for our relationship and too much to put him through and watch the fall out over and over for him.
It's his birthday today...we have stayed in our pjs and have been building lego, we are both so tired and this is not much of a celebration but it's what he wants to do.
I've emailed school and things but not hearing anything back since this time last week...my theory is now 'well, if they aren't bothered, then why am I so worried about everything.'... He's not in school, I've done all I can.
I'm just thinking about home and us and waiting for this 'placing request' meeting next wednesday with all the powers that be. I'm going to request medical files and school files and collate everything together for myself. I may need all this if I have to take a legal stance to secure specialist placement I believe my DS must have.
Glad to be back here and be able to post and share with you all xxx
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
Here are some suggested organisations that offer expert advice on special needs.
SN children
DS refusing School...battling for specialist school...and coping, just!
44 replies
whatthewhatthebleep · 19/09/2012 18:48
OP posts:
Don’t want to miss threads like this?
Weekly
Sign up to our weekly round up and get all the best threads sent straight to your inbox!
Log in to update your newsletter preferences.
You've subscribed!
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.