depressed

[RebeccaRHY1]

So i love being at home with my children. My eldest is 4 i went bk to work part time after having her. But when our second came along it made alot more sense for me to leave my job and become a stay at home parent.
Dont get me wrong i feel blessed to be in a position to do this but i just feel so alone and like ive completly lost myself
My oh works away from home and we have few options for babysitters.
My days are just like ground hog day. Same things, same issues with the kids, same little tantrums, same battles at dinner time, bedrime
Comes and im exhausted more emotionally and mentally i think.
I see my friends with the children in tow and try ro get out when oh is home but i have nothing to talk about anymore but kids
I feel like i need to escape. But feel bad for thinking that way when my children are a pleasure to be with.
I want to spend more time with my friends but when i do im just reminded how little ive got to talk about these days. How ive done nothing for 4 years but watch pepper pig, colour in and clean up. Then i feel
More depressed. Can anyone relate!?

[mogloveseggs]

Yes me. I've lost contact with quite a few people due to not feeling like I have anything to contribute when I see them. Am coming out the other side now. After dd joined brownies I volunteered to be a leader. Now she's in guides and I'm still there 3 years on. Although it's to do with kids it's completely different and I'm treated as mog by the other leaders not dds mum. Does your dd start school this time? Is your youngest in nursery or due to start?

[RebeccaRHY1]

Dd starts schl sept. Ds has another year until he'll start nursery. Tho hes a june baby and wont go until the sept term which adds on a few months too. I think i need to find some adult socialisation of likeminded people

[RebeccaRHY1]

Dd starts schl sept. Ds has another year until he'll start nursery. Tho hes a june baby and wont go until the sept term which adds on a few months too. I think i need to find some adult socialisation of likeminded people

[mogloveseggs]

Could you afford an afternoon a week in nursery for your youngest? See if you can go do a class or something in that time? Or is there a dance class that runs for adults at the same time as littlies? Ds does ballet and tap and I do zumba at the same time. Only an hour off but it's an hour of adult time