I'm not completely reeling any more, but I'm not in a good place either. My brother has recently been staying nearby, having travelled about 200 miles to get there. Despite saying he would like to see where we lived and was looking forward to seeing us, he made no contact whatsoever, and went on as though we did not exist.
I guess the sore bit is that it brings up a lot of very uncomfortable family issues, and it is very unpleasant to say the least that I have a brother who really could not give a shit about me. Why have I bothered wasting my breath talking to him, ever then, I wonder?
My father has something wrong with his brain, probably some kind of personality disorder. My mother is now demented.
I recently learned that my father really hated and resented me after my elder brother died when I was 18 months old. This has never really diminished./
I feel very sad that in truth I have lost 2 brothers, one through death and another through insanity. It is the latter that I am having problems letting go of. I am rather suspecting that this mad brother has similar difficulties to my father.
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Please please please, I feel as though I am going mad - can anyone bend an ear?
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silentcatastrophe · 04/11/2009 16:13
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