Just before i go in to details, i have posted before. Brief history:
Together 8 years.
1 ds (3 yo)
has been violence from both sides
dreadful arguments, awful things said
been to counselling (past and now)
dh shows alot of aspergic traits
i left a year ago and got involved with xp
recently discovered dh looking at bdsm websites, he lied in past about looking at such stuff
had an op few weeks after discovering porn stuff and dh didn't try to make amends beforehand
I had decided i wanted to split up and told him soon after op, he did/said nothing. few weeks later i asked him if we could have one last try, he agreed.
So that's where we are now, supposedly giving things one last go and seeing counsellor regularly together. Also i have no contact anymore with xp.
Last night though things were awful. It's my birthday in 3 weeks and dh knows i like to have something to look forward to. (it 's his in a week too and he knows i booked something for us weeks ago and asked him about presents about a month ago). last night he asked where i wanted to go for my bday and i came up with a suggestion but as it's a new restaurant, likely to be very, very popular. we'd discussed that it might already be fuly booked (as my bday on a saturday) so he' need to book it v quickly. After we'd talked about it, i went off to do a few things and really hoped he'd get on and book it. i waited and he did nothing, just sa twatching tv. I told him that it was upsetting we'd just had to chat about how popular it'd be and he got angry and said he was going to do it at lucnchtime today and why should he have to do it straight away. I got really upset and he got really angry - i was esp upset as i've made such an effort for him and my last 2 birthdays have been crap (due to him ). he started tanting at me and i tried to shut him up by putting my hand over his mouth (v bad i know), he tehn elbowed me off in the area where i had a recent op (think i was an accident). I told him what he;'s done, and he said i shouldn't have been touching him, true i know. there was no concern from him at all though. Then a bit later argumetn contined in kitchen, i was standing infrot of him and he tried to pusch past me, i lost my balance and feel on floor and bumped my head - he carried on ranting whiel i lay there. Atfer a while he came back and asked me to get up.
Needless to say we slept in separate rooms last night and he ame in and stroked my head this morning, i told him to get off and he went to work. Next counselling appt is in a few days, wondering if it's worth carrying on?
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togoornot · 08/10/2009 10:35
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