I'm in need of some robust MN advice here please...
Back story, been with DH for years and years, have DC who are teens/nearly teens. He works quite long hours, and has work related committee meetings in the evenings. I'm a SAHM/WAHM, so do the majority of the house and DC stuff, which now includes taking them ot stuff in the evenigns (because they're older, and their activities are later).
We've not been getting on that well for a while now (few years), have periodic bust-ups, I get upset, then pretend it enver happened (not healthy I know). Biggest on-going problem from my point of view is that DH either won't listen to me, avoids spending time with me, or when he does listen to how i'm feelign, tells me he doesn't mean I should feel like that. he won't tell me how he feels, and sits up till all hours drinking and brooding. And the more upset he gets, the later he sits up and more he broods. And the more he broods, the less he interacts with me. It's got to the point where I can't remember tha last time we had sex, or the last time we went to bed at the same time. He's not seeing anyone else AFAIK btw.
So anyway, he's been drinking pretty heavily (bottle of wine plus a night), but mainly after I've gone to bed (around 10.30/11ish). Last week he went out to a work thing, meanign ot be home around 8.30. Didn't get back till 1, after having goen ot the pub with some people and "forgotten" the time, missing the last train, and having to get a cab the last bit of the way. he was so driunk he only just made it upstairs, couldn't get undressed properly, and obviously didn't make it ouf of bed into work the next day.
This kind of thing doesn't happen very often, but it does happen every six months or so, and each time (once he's sobered up) he promises it won't happen again. I've heard this over and over again for the past 15 years.
So last week I told hi that I'd had enough, and i wanted him ot think about how much he was drinking, and how he was behaving (DC had woken up to him throwing up in the bathroom, so not nice), he said, OK I'll get my stuff together this afternoon, and went.
He's been staying at his dad and step-mums, and so far has been coming and going pretty much as he pleases. I don't know how long he's planning on staying there, nor will he tell me, he wants to take things "a week at a time" and we "need to start talking to each oher again" (as friends) before we can talk about our issues. The drinking is apparently a symptom of the problem and not the problem itself . I want to know where we currently stand,, and have some kind of time frame for where we go from here.
I don't know if I want him back or not - it's been quite nice here without him as i haven't been gettign all stressed about him ignoring me in favour of Sky Sports, computer games and committee meetings, nor telling me he's just coming up to bed, when he fully intends to spend another couple of hours playing on the computer. But, if we do properly split up, it will affect the DC quite badly. Eldest is quite matter of fact about it (as she doesn't see that much of him anyway - I was shocked when she said yesterday that in the previous week, she'd only seen him four times), but the other two are much closer to him. Also, if I am bringing them up myself, then naturally our standard of living goes down, and they will have to give up some or all of the things they do. I do work, but only part time from home, but I can't earn the kind of money DH does.
Am I being selfish thinking that me being happier is more important than the DCs being able to do the things they enjoy and are good at, and which will look good on their university application forms/CVs in the future? Or does the fact that I'm a mother mean that I should put myself second?
I don't know if I love DH, certainly I don't particularly like him at the moment, and I don't knwo what he feels about me. I know what he says to other people (his mum reckons that yes he does love me, and yes he does want to be here, but thinks I don't want him, and is staying away because he thinks it's what I want), but he doesn't let me see that, and certainly doesn't do anything to make me feel special or wanted in any way (other than to do the laundry, cook the meals and bring up his children). And when I try to explain all this, he doesn't seem to get it, or even think it's particularly important, that because he doesn't intend it, I shouldn't feel liek that.
So wise women of MN, where do I go from here? How do I talk ot him so that he hears what I'm saying without descending into a nagging shrew (I fully hold my hands up to that) or going off to the bathroom to cry?
Sorry about the essay, also, because I've spent so long plucking up the courage to actually post this, I have to go out now, and won't be back on the computer till later this evening.
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Howdoyouknowwhattodo · 28/09/2009 14:30
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