It's our 2nd dc and I don't think the impending birth is the cause of dh feeling low right now - we're having a pretty busy and stressful time and that is often the trigger for him becoming quite withdrawn and angry and, frankly, quite selfish.
Most of the time he's on a pretty even keel and we have a very equal partnership. He's a great husband and dad. Then there are times when he feels very depressed and then I know I need to step up and keep things going. That's fine.
But at the moment I am really struggling myself. I'm 8mo pg, we have a 2yo ds, and just this week I've been in hospital overnight on a drip after an awful bout of gastroenteritis. DH has been lovely and supportive but last night he just snapped and said he couldn't do any more and needed a break and wanted to kill himself if he had to carry on like this. I don't think he would harm himself - he has no history of it - but he also doesn't bandy these threats around. I do believe he is at the end of his tether.
Thing is, what to do? He has been working very hard recently, and has been asked on several occasions to cover for a more senior colleague - I have been supportive of this because it's a fantastic thing for him (he often feels insecure about work), even though it means I have to fetch ds from childcare after a full day's work myself and do bath, bed etc alone. I am exhausted.
And although dh has been brilliant at giving me rest time at the weekends, he's now saying he cannot cope and needs some time to himself... All of which is true and even sort of reasonable: he's a terrible sleeper and is working very hard. The problem is, for him to work this hard requires me to take on extra childcare. And for him to get the rest he needs to compensate requires me to take on extra childcare. And I simply haven't got the energy (I have SPD as well).
He is being selfish, I know (we rowed last night and he texted me, after storming out for a bit, to ask: "do you have any idea how ill i felt driving you to the hospital?". Well, er, given that I had full-blown gastroenteritis and dehydration, and he was feeling dodgy but wasn't actually sick, yes I do know - not as bad as I was!). But I also know that when he's in the midst of a spell like this, to tell him he's selfish is completely pointless. He gets incredibly defensive, reels off all the things he's done for me - conveniently forgetting that I might do a bit for him too - and we fight.
I'm prepared to step up for now, to make sure he gets some rest this weekend and try to make him feel less pressured. But given that this baby is coming in a few weeks, there is a limit to how long I can do this.
Any advice on how we can get through this?
Please or to access all these features
Please
or
to access all these features
Mumsnet has not checked the qualifications of anyone posting here. If you need help urgently or expert advice, please see our domestic violence webguide and/or relationships webguide. Many Mumsnetters experiencing domestic abuse have found this thread helpful: Listen up, everybody
Relationships
Depressive DH, I'm 8mo pg, strategies please!
12 replies
WaterGreen · 11/09/2009 15:42
OP posts:
Please create an account
To comment on this thread you need to create a Mumsnet account.