I broke it off with my 1st and if I am honest true love 15 years ago. He could never decide if he wanted me or not, was a lazy lay about who would not commit and my parents hated him and where releived when it finished.
I went on to meet and marry a man who I love we have 2 dc (who I really do not want to hurt in any way) we have been married over 10 yrs and had no real problems and over come everything life throws at us.
1st love has got back in touch (I now live over 100 miles from him so have no met him) saying he has changed - got a job not afraid to commit etc and that he has always loved me and thinks dh is a very lucky man. He wants us to meet up (as friends)
Since all this I cant help thinking what it would be like to be with him again - have always loved him. for the followin greasons this would be bad:
1 distance between our homes
2 have a better standard of living with dh than would have with ex
3 dh family are very well off and due to my past health fear would loose my kids who are everything to me.
4 My parents would be on dh side and disown me.
Even with all the above I kepp imagining us meeting as friends and the inevitable happening (which is totally out of character for me)
want to see him again but can i trust myself and what would it acheive only to cloudy everything even more and cause a lot of heartache - I cant get him out of my mind - Try to tell myself I am seeing everything through rose tinted glasses and how can I love someone I've not had any contact with for well over 1o years - we have both changed so much would we actually love the new us.
Sorry so long but I need advice.
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Sunshine78 · 10/08/2009 13:19
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