We finished things for many reasons, but still in each others lives alot because of dc.
I know we are no good together. He drinks, was unfaithful, got us in loads of debt etc. I don't want another man at all, the thought makes me feel ill in fact. He hurt me too badly for me to get over it.
I am finding it very difficult though how easily he has managed to move on. He goes out alot and seems to be having a pretty fun life. Know he is seeing other people.
I think that I probably still love him but he is such a liability in so many ways that it is not healthy for me and my dc to be with him so I ended it.
Why then am I finding it so difficult to watch him living the life of riley. Don't get my wrong, I love my dc and they are my world but I feel very lonely and sad when he has them and when his family see them, obviously I am not included in this. This is another hard thing as I was very close to his sisters too. They play lip service to still being friends but I know this is not really possible. I don't really have any RL friends here and don't really know how to go about making them. In fact I am a very sad case.
Why do I feel so utterly crap when getting rid of him was so the right thing. I miss him, we used to laugh together a lot but I don't want him back because of his awful behaviour when we were together. Do you know how confusing that is? He seems to have got over us remarkably quickly too. I ended it but I still feel terrible, probably worse than when we were together. That was extreme emotion this is just a constant ache.
Sorry so long. Feeling very sad today.
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Things ended with horrible ex but I still feel bad, anyone else get through this?
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quietlygreenandhurtingabit · 30/07/2009 11:06
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