My dh is a "recovering" alcoholic. We've been together for 8 years, married for 1 and have been through hell and high water to get to where we are now.
Over the years his drunken behaviour hsd a huge impact on our lives (obv.). Hs has been occasionally violent (very occasionally, but it has occured a couple of times). Very verbally abusive and very frightening. He is a very jealous person and problems often arise when I've been talking to other men. He seems to "pick" particular men that he sees as a treat and just gets a bee in his bonnet about something "going on" between us. This happened regardless of whether I even talk to them or not. All this happens only when he has been drinking excessively.
Around 3 months ago he hit a real rock bottom and finally recognised that he had to give up the drinking if it meant keeping his family. However he recently decided that rather than being teetotal he would now modify his drinking to 3 beers on a night out. It did concern me as I knew it would spiral back eventually, but he wouldn't hear any of it. So I just crossed my fingers.
We went to a wedding on Saturday and he fucked up big time. It ended with his refusing to leave while people tryed to physically throw him out. When we were outside he threw me against a wall and held his arm up to my throat cholking me until I couldn't breath. I could see it coming a mile off but was powerless to prevent it happening. I had to hide from him and a friend picked me up, where I stayed that night. The children were at his Mum's thank goodness.
It's only the drink that makes him do all of this and I've been living in hope that things will change over the years. It has become less frequent but Saturday proves that it does still happen.
Can this ever change? Can my husband become the loving father and partner I see 95% of the time? I feel so sad that it's all fucked up again after a long good spell. I don't know how much longer I can go on hoping for a normal life. I'm pretty trapped as it is as have no job or qualifications.
Sorry it's so long. I just wonder if anyone who has been through something similar can give me some advice on how to deal with this.
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Alcoholic dh fell off the wagon this weekend, V sad
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Pushingonthrough · 14/07/2009 10:33
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