And I know how pathetic that sounds, and it is nothing to do with dh, he loves me and fancies wehatever I look like and always has.
I lost quite a lot of weight but have put 50% back on over the last year.
When I was slim I was content with myself asnd therefore a nice person.
I have found myself flirting with a friend that i know fancies me, just for the boost to my self esteem I tihnk, I have no intention of ever doing anything. This is not fair on dh although he knows and doesnt really mind because he knows I wouldnt do anything, but it is really not fair ion the friend who I have known for years and I think has been besotted with me the entire time.
I have over the last week getting closer and closer to lines that I wouold never cross, and I am concerned that I need to do this just to feel good about myself.
I know i should not be so shallow and that what you look like means crap all, but tbh I hate getting ready to go out and going shopping, I feel old and fat and ugly and dh is paying the price for that which is not on.
Anyway sorry about the rambling just wantred to get that out and written down to see if it makes sense iyswim.
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I have realised that for the sake of my marriage I need to lose weight
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thesockmonsterofdoom · 05/06/2009 10:57
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