I am not wanting to give too much away here but need some perspective. I am wondering about love. Really romantic love, marital love. I "get" my maternal love, friend love etc. But I have always been very confused by romantic love. I have never really got it. I am a very romantic, passionate person but also extremely pragmatic. I have never been able to say what romantic love was. I understand it is unrealistic to expect perfection, or passion, all the time. What I am asking it... what is realistic?
How much compromise is too much? When you are married to someone for years, how do you feel about them? How much do you expect, emotionally? Do you enjoy each others company? Do you share interests, besides your children? Do you seek each other out or mainly operate separate interests? Do you crave passion? And if you do crave passion that you havent got, is that a sign you are immature and expecting something to last which by its very nature is transitory, or a sign you are with the wrong partner? Or is it a matter of duration? We all know the grass often looks greener, and I for one do not want to go from pasture to pasture checking them all out! But still... I will be honest and admit I do not have the perfect marriage. I wonder very much if this is all there is.
My DH is lovely. A very good man and a good husband and great father. And I have no interest at all in any other man. But for years I have felt a lack that try as I might I have not been able to get past for various reasons. I really dont want to say too much detail but suffice it to say, I have tried. DH is partly to blame, as am I, and also just very different temperaments and expectations.
I have ummed and awwed and decided not to namechange. Some of you know me in RL and a lot of you know me on MN so rather than say it all I will just say what I am comfortable with in a sort of, research way. But to be honest I cant be bothered to faff with name changing I can never remember who I am supposed to be.
I will also say my DS is ASD and I feel DH and I splitting up would be truly horrific for him. And as I am not really suffering I dont think its a worthy exchange. Its more a case of not being totally fulfilled. But this is my point, maybe I am not fulfilled because I am a bottomless pit, and its nothing to do with my DH. So what needs fixing?
Please be kind. Really! I cant take a bashing on this subject. I have been a long time poster although under different names and I really dont want to namechange. I just want to know how other women feel about love. Its taken a lot of courage for me to finally voice my feelings to anyone by my own self.
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I would like to know your thoughts on love... really!
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