Help, I need to know how to sort myself out.
I am married with 3 dc's. In a nutshell I don't seem to be able to get over the fact that I earn much more than my husband and all the responsibility for 'providing' for us falls on my shoulders.
When we married 10 years ago, he was 'self employed', tho' in reality he worked for a conman who took 27K off him. Its a long story and my husband was stupid to sign over a second charge on his house to this bloke... We married fairly quickly after we met and I don't think I fully realised what effect this had on me. It wasn't just that he had ben stupid, bt that he had no will to fight for HIS /OUR future financial stability.
Anyway I was working ft and had a house so we just absorbed the loss and got on with things.
he got a job, a very basic job, which he is still doing now. I earn probably 8x his salary. I am in a profession which I worked hard for, and I have continued to work hard at to provide a good standard of living for us and our children.
But, heres the rub, I am really starting to resent him for his continued low income and inability to even try to increase his earnngs. With the credit crunch and having had to go on to an SVR on our mortgage, money is really tight. I am having to extra hours exactly at the time when I would love to be doing a bit less so that I could spend more time with or children. Thing is I cant see it ever changing. Whenever we want anything - like a holiday, Its always me who has to provide.
he is also completly disinterested in decision making. ALL and I mean all decisions are made by me,; where the kids go to school, who we see, what mortgage company we use, whats for dinner. Its all me. Its like he dosnt want to take any responsibility in cas e its 'wrong'
I don't want to end my marriage. He is an OK dad ( dosen't DO much with the ids tbh but hes there) and we get along fine, no rows, amicable even fun ( at times relationship) sex life fine... I just feel ANGRY with him. as though I expected him to step up to the mark and at least try to provide for his children... when we married there were no children so it seemed ok, but now I expect him to have grown up and it seems to me that he hasn't...
am I being completely unreasonable?
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HELP. Resentment destroying my marriage
Horntail · 19/08/2008 17:32
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