I feel so empty. The only thing I have in my life is 5 wonderful well adjusted kids who I adore and adore me.
I have a very bad marriage - emotionally barren and devoid of any kind of contact - physical or emotional. Sometimes the lon=iliness and pain is so great I feel as if I will burst. Dh is nogt a friend to me 0 - just someone who criticses me and puts me down.
I have no real life close frineds to confide in - all apart fron one or tow childhood frineds thqat i do'nt see any more are mutual good time friends based on school kids friendships of our dcs and socail life. nOE of them I would ever tqalk to. Have spoken to some over the years and cuased enormoous social anguish and awkiardness - it's just not that kind of social circle where one bares one's soul - its all about how well we are doig blah balh ablah.
Parents are crap - my dad is lovely but unable to support e at all. My mum is difficult and nasty at time s - no support.
I really dont' have anyone in the world. At all. Apart from my kids it kind of occurs to me that no-one would carfe whether I even was here tomorrow or not. So miseralbe. So desparate.
The diffiuclt y of looking after 5 kids alone - of course he's going to pay gtricks wit the money and bugger off abroad where he came rom as its cheaper to live ( he said hwe would if we spolit ) and trying to work kwill probalby put me in an early grave anyway.
When I think back to life just 20 yrs ago - had a uni degree, on course to be a lawyer, world ahead of me. now - i've got nothing and no-one practually who cares about me. so lonly
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