I don't know that anyone can help me but I just need to get it out. I don't love my husband anymore. Problem is, I have a child with him whom I adore, and I love that child more than anything else in the world.
DH travels quite regularly, and I am finding that I look forward to when he goes away - I don't even miss him when he's gone and to be quite honest, I feel a bit disappointed when it's time for him to come home. I don't feel any sexual attraction anymore, it's like I just see him as a friend and that's it. All I can put this down to is that over the long course of our relationship, I've had many ups and downs with him, and the downs have been so severe for me that I think I have slowly lost my feelings for him. Strangely enough, he seems to think everything is ok and still has feelings for me. I think another problem is that whenever I've told him that I'm unhappy about something, and would like things to change, I see an improvement for a little while but then he just goes back to the way he was. He also has quite a bit of baggage from his first marriage which has caused a lot of problems too. I just know I would probably be happier living on my own right now.
If I consider my religious beliefs in this situation, I feel that I am bound to him by marriage and that I have an obligation be with him because he is my husband and the father of my child. In other words, make the best of the situation. But I feel like I have nothing left to give and I just wonder how long it can go on like this. I truly don't want my child to go through a marriage break-up and I don't know if my feelings in this matter can be salvaged. I sometimes wish I didn't have my child because he is just the innocent third party who didn't ask for any of these problems.
Thank you for listening.
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