Hoping for some advice as am so confused and going round in circles in my head. Been married 15 years this month and together 17yrs. We have 2 amazing children aged 12 and 9. Husband is kind of like a 3rd kid - he likes his lie ins, PCs / gaming etc. He will always be found trying to sneak onto a screen just like the children. He doesn't do housework, cook or clean and his personal hygiene isn't up to much. He never makes plans to do family stuff or plan holidays or take the kids anywhere.
I get told I'm a nag when I try to get him to do a few chores etc. I'm sick of picking up after him. The laziness is one thing - but 'in a nutshell' he is also emotionally unavailable, unsupportive and self engrossed. This sounds harsh without examples but examples just sound like I'm moaning / being a 'nag' like he says.
Crux point came approx' 3 yrs ago when I was having some anxiety issues / worries and wanted to talk things through. We went out for dinner - my parents had the kids and I asked him if I could talk things through with him to clear my mind. He told me that night that 'He had no room in his head for my issues'. I felt embarrassed and shut down. I had built up courage to ask. I stopped wearing my wedding ring some time ago but he hasn't commented.
He's quite short tempered and angry and little things set him off. He was the breadwinner and I have a small 2nd income - until 3 weeks ago when he got fired. Before children we both had equally paid jobs / careers but then my main role became parenting.
He has - all these years earned good money doing quite cushy jobs imo. He's well qualified and clever but, well lazy is the only word I can think of.
He's hated his last 3 or 4 jobs and always wants to quit. He got fired for not hitting targets three weeks ago and is so pleased as he can now spend 18 hrs a day creating and selling digital art which is all he now talks about. What about the mortgage????
I have told him I'm unhappy a couple of times but he brushes it off like there's nothing wrong. I asked him to leave around 18 months ago - mainly to shock him that I was serious about being unhappy. He brushed it off. Then Covid hit and here we are.
Just over a year ago and obs during Covid I had two big family issues within the same week. I'm from a very close family. We had a death and also a terminal diagnosis (my lovely Dad). I can hardly bear to type this and am struggling to understand Dad will be going.
My husband doesn't mention it. He sees me cry sometimes and talks about something unrelated instead (usually the cryptic art thing which I don't give a toss about). I'm trying to be strong for Mum and now Dad can't drive (and Mum doesn't) I take Dad to his appointments and help with shopping / banking etc. I have my pt job and the children (one autistic so needing a little more time / attention) and all of the housework.
The main sadness tho is to do with the fact that my feelings / anxiety / sadness isn't validated and isn't something for discussion.
I am sorry to say that I am starting to resent him. I want to make it work. I don't want the family broken up.
I thought if I got somewhere local to rent for me and the boys it would shock him that I'm serious and make him evaluate stuff.
I got inheritance money from my family member who passed' so I could afford some rent. It'd be (hopefully) short term but most are unfurnished and long term tenancy.
My Mum (and Dad) said I could stay with them. Mum 'gets' my plan but their house is smaller, Dad has a lot of needs and my autistic son is very loud. They love my husband but see that things have gone wrong.
We have a great house here. It needs some work but my inheritance would just about cover this. Can't envisage spending all the money on the work though when it may be needed to cover mortgage and living etc now that we are without a secure income. Work was supposed to commence end of this month :-(
Had wanted it done for Christmas to have Mum and Dad over . The main issue is more long standing though.
Is it me? Should I just get on with it? I'm so confused. I can't sleep well. I'm worried about how Dad will go, how Mum will be, how we all will be. Anx' playing up again. Thoughts spin. I have some amazing friends but I come home to my husband - on the screens - obsessed with the crypic art - and football - and tales from his uni friends.
In the last year I saw my family member dead and in a not nice way. I saw my Dad have a septic seizure on our staycation to make memories and kissed him goodbye in the ambulance in the middle of the night - not allowed to go with him. Mum beside herself. Brother, aunt, sis in law, cousin all sat up for news. Husband stayed in bed. Had a lie in in fact. Feel like i'm going nuts
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Lissilou · 11/10/2021 18:09
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