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I had a miscarriage almost two years ago and I was devastated. Ever since then I've just been busy with nursing school and keeping my life together. I try to tell myself I don't need to have a kid right now. I'm 24 years old, and I have so much more life to live. But I also find myself seeing my friends with there children and in there relationships and I just feel jealous. I know I'll be the most loving parent, I want to be able to love on my child and for them to call me "mommy" I don't even think I would be tired of it. I feel like I don't have someone of my own. No boyfriend no kid. Just me and my family and even they all have relationships. I hate even thinking about this because I'm still building on myself and I want to be the best version of myself for my future family but who's to say that they won't be the reason had I had one of my own? I am involved with this man who wants to be in a relationship but there is so much more I believe we need to work on before we can commit to each other. I don't like feeling like this. So confused. Not knowing how to feel or being able to even understand how I feel. It's just weighing on me.
Sorry you feel sad and unhappy.
That experience must have been horrid.
But 24 is still very young.
As the country is opening up why not try a new hobby to meet new people?
@Justa47 yeah that's why I'm not trying to be so stressed about it, but I can't avoid the way I feel either because I just get angry or sad. I'm usually a happy person and this is the only thing that makes me sad but I honestly believe it's because I love love. I love loving the people that I do love and I couldn't imagine not being able to. I've recently joined many hobbies since we are allowed outside more lol. But to no avail people are inconsistent and I don't want to be pushy.