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So I was in a relationship for 6 months yet did I know he was cheating on me the whole entire time he wouldn’t leave me alone kept calling my phone as time passed he would make up excuses and tell me to get over it he cheated on me when I was going through a cancer scare I’ve had cancer previously but he wasn’t there around the time of me having it but what hurts is that it wasn’t 1 girl or 2 is was 30 odd females he broke me in a matter of ways I cannot describe I pre ordered him a ps5 I wasted money travelling back and forth I thought I was special the entire time he even introduced me to his mum and brother who I made a great connection with and for that all to crumble even when I found out he was cheating he blocked me immediately after I found out he ruined me and I need advise on how to patch up all these feelings of me being self conscious and not good enough I don’t think I can date after this
And just to clarify I have never cheated on him I made him feel comfortable I made him feel loved he had a bad past relationship and I made sure I was nothing like his last I thought he deserved to be treated well because I thought he was doing the same for me I have never cheated on him I only wanted the best which hurt me
Did you know him before or meet him through OLD?
I’m sorry you had such an awful experience and hope you feel better soon. Perhaps try to change your mindset? Obviously, his behaviour has been horrendous and he doesn’t deserve you in the slightest, thank goodness it was over after 6 months rather than 6 years.
Try to work on your self worth and boundaries before dating again (if you choose too). It seems you were hugely invested after 6 months. It can work out well for some people but I’ve become very cynical and cautious, haha.
OP theres something you need to understand: some people are just rotten.
It's no one else fault.
Its nothing you've done wrong.
Some people are just rotten.
Your job is to protect yourself, to show kindness to yourself and to forgive yourself for the mistake of caring for the wrong sort person. A mistake that we all make at times.
Bad people exist and all they know how to do is to hurt and take. His failings, his emptiness and his cruelty are not your burden. Let him go and be glad he has left.
This viper would have you wallowing in his pit of torment forever if he could. But now he is gone, you can climb out. Look up to the light, not back to his darkness.
You're free now IF you choose it. And you will find your way back to yourself in time. Just be kind to yourself.
He made me feel like I was the crazy one you know when you have that gut feeling ? And you know something is wrong I accused him and he manipulated me into thinking I was the issue I’d apologise so many times it would hurt but I wanted to say thank you for all the supportive messages it means slot for me for people to see I’m not the crazy one and understand me I’m being heard I felt like I was invincible and my feelings didn’t matter anymore
I’m still trying to cope with everything and trying to manage the amount of damage done to my mental health I want to feel beautiful again I know that will take time I’m not like all the other girls he was talking to I felt fat compared to the girls he was speaking with to the point were I started to develop a hatred for myself I wish I could take back all the effort and money I spent to look good knowing full well it went to waste you know what I mean 😢
Well it didn't go to waste because it made you feel better about yourself at the time. Sure you might have been doing it for the wrong reasons but there is nothing wrong with spending on yourself.
People with good should are never ugly.