I have two choices.
- Leave husband . This means that the children and I would lose everything, we would at best be able to rent somewhere very small, so sharing rooms, not having space, rehoming the much loved pets and generally struggling to meet basic life costs.
- Stay with husband. Accept that this means that I am drowning in unhappiness, but children have a stable home and pets are safe.
I've chosen option 2 and then there are nights like this when I'm in tears reading MN and just can't believe this is my life.