Ok not sure where to start or even what I want from this but I need to write it out somewhere.
I left my SBXH about 5 months ago and moved into my own place, with my daughter half of the time.
Just as I met exDH, I had a fling at uni although it never turned into anything else because I concentrated on exDH. This guy and me have always always stayed in touch over the years and friends and had a chat now and again.
Now he knows I’m single I invited him down this past weekend. (Had no one else in my bubble, single mum) He lives 5 hours away so it’s a fair trek.
It was incredible. He stayed at mine for two whole days and nights, and the sex was insane, I can’t even sum up how beautiful it was.
It wasn’t even that the sex was physically good although it was great, there was a real emotional connection, cuddling kissing for hours beforehand, and mentally I could of cried during sex. I’ve never ever felt anything like it before, and if anyone said this to me previously I’d have shrugged it off. He was also a perfect gentleman, checked I was ok, kissed my head, opened doors, paid for every dinner coffee even though I offered etc etc.
He made it pretty clear he wasn’t looking for a relationship and I knew that from the get go, it was just unfinished business. He was perfectly honest about it and it was my choice.
I cannot stop crying two days later. It’s like I’ve come back down to earth with a crash and I don’t know what to do with myself. Normal life now seems so mundane. I’m walking round today tearful and upset. I’ve tried googling for it and found some people find the first sex after marriage a big thing, I just don’t know why I’m so upset or how I’m supposed to forget about it. Does anyone have any help? Thank you.
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