I don't know how to link to my previous thread but in it I talked about the fact that my ex had moved on after 6 months and I was devastated. We had split up at my instigation after many years together as I had trust issues and felt I couldn't stay with him after being let down yet again.
During the 6 months apart he would tell me often that he still loved me , cry and cry and ask if there was any chance of a reconciliation? But I was strong and stuck to my decision. He finally accepted it was over when I paid him his share of the house, having had to remortgage and go back to square one financially.
And after accepting that our relationship is over he has now moved on to a relationship with somebody he has met online who lives a long way away.
I have found this so so difficult to accept. I am still grieving over what has happened and what the future holds. There is no way I could even think of looking for another man, and yet here he is entertaining his new girlfriend in a hotel for the weekend. ( second time so it's obviously not a one off).
Swanning around in his new car bought from our divorce settlement.
He has no job ( made redundant during lockdown) , lives with his mother and probably won't be able to get anywhere to live himself as he has a CCJ against him. He will likely have told her that I am the guilty partner who has kicked him out and left him destitute otherwise why would she be giving him a second glance? I fantasise about meeting up by accident and my telling her everything about him but that would just make me look like an unhinged ex.
So why then am I crying constantly, stomach churning, wondering where they are and what they are doing, what she is called, what she looks like. I picture them merrily laughing together and having a great time, torturing myself basically. I don't want him back for all the above mentioned reasons .
I suppose I am feeling terribly hurt that he has felt able to move on when I am nowhere near and don't go out to meet anybody anyway.
Initially we talked amicably but when I found out he had somebody new I couldn't deal with it and told him I would only contact him about arrangements for the dc. I don't go to the door when he picks the dc up as it hurts to see him. I really really have to try hard not to pick up the phone though and just have a chat or a text. But why should he have me chatting amicably and also his new girlfriend so that he's got the best of both worlds?
Will he be missing me, thinking about what I am doing or will he now put all thoughts of me to one side now he has somebody new?
Are these feelings normal? They are overwhelming and taking over my thoughts and it's not healthy. He doesn't deserve that space in my head.
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Grandadwasthatyou · 19/09/2020 15:55
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