After almost 2 years of what I knew was abuse but didn't have the nerve to leave.
I still love him so much, I'll miss him like a limb and I'm going to completely fall apart.
But he's destroying me. Making me physically ill. And despite breaking up my marriage for this man - not proud of myself is a huge understatement - I need to walk away.
I can't predict if he will be angry or feign upset. He will undoubtedly make my life a living hell in the usual way - taunting me with other women, putting me down, trying to lose me my job etc
But I'm almost hoping he's relieved. I think he might be as he then won't have to do as he's promised he would for the last year, and change his domestic arrangement and move in with me.
I now realise this is a lucky escape for me but it's been a revelation over the last 48 hours so I need to act now.
I'm so so anxious. I don't want to argue or get tongue tied but be firm, say what I need to and show him the door.
If I listed 10% of things he's done, things I've done to try and please him... you'd all think I'm crazy to stay this long. But I need to start living my life, no controlling, no belittling, no abuse.
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HeyThereLonelyGir1 · 03/09/2020 04:57
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