I’ve name changed for this because in all honesty I’m so ashamed of myself.
Can anyone shed some light on what is happening with me please. I’m like a big bubble of emotions all the time and it’s starting to cause trouble in my relationship with DH. He’s calm and really laid back with everything. Sometimes he can be lazy, but I can’t not be up doing something so maybe it’s six Of one and half a dozen of the other.
I’m starting to not sleep very well sometimes waking up 3-4 times in the night. And when I do wake up it’s like my whole body is just ACHING. I don’t know why but in the morning I feel fine. I feel like I have to have control over everything in the house regarding housework wise. It needs to be perfect all the time. If I have unexpected guests I run around the house re doing things that really don’t need to be done. This causes arguments because as said above I feel like I can’t relax. Even when I’m watching telly my mind drifts to things that I really should be doing. It’s like I feel guilty for sitting down. Then I get really bad anxiety where I can’t stop my mind from wondering about worst case scenarios. Even feeling guilty for something I said 5 years ago. It’s really exhausting me and I’m so upset that I just can’t seem to pin point why I’m doing these things. I sometimes can get quite a temper if things don’t get done. Which again causes arguments with DH. It all came to blows on Saturday night where we had a massive argument in front of DD. She’s never seen us arguing before and now I’m worried she’s frightened. It’s a never ending cycle and I don’t know what to do. I’m so tired of feeling this way and I must be absolute bloody nightmare to live with.
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What is going on with me. Am I going crazy?
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Warningveryhotwater · 17/08/2020 09:07
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