Hi.
So this happened about 14 years ago, and until recently I had only had positive memories of a short relationship. He has a kind guy, had a very difficult childhood, but worshiped me- which ultimately is why it didn’t work. I was on a pedestal and I couldn’t hack it.
Anyway, when we were just getting to know each other, we were in bed, doing stuff but I kept saying I don’t want to have sex, I didn’t want to until I was serious about someone. He knew this, had known it from the start. I was literally LITERALLY saying no, come on, I don’t want to and he did anyway. Then I just laid there and after he got really upset and said we should have waited and it wasn’t as good as he wanted it to be etc. No sorry. At the time I just said ‘well I didn’t want to and I DID SAY!’, I didn’t see him again after that really, except for him occasionally turning up offering me the world.
Since lock down I’ve just been swilling it around in my mind and had to get it out. I’ve never really spoken about it and it’s pretty intense. I felt in lock down I wanted to message him and be like wtaf, are you aware you did this? But I obviously haven’t. I’m not sure how to move forward tbh. I’m married with children now and am quite content in my little life. I just wish I could make him see what he did, and to make sure he doesn’t do it again. At the time I just felt pissed off but now I don’t know how I feel.
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Trigger- I think he might have raped me
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Babynumber2dueNov · 14/08/2020 19:53
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