i've been unhappy for so long as per previous post. He is an emotional bully where me and the boys are concerned. Often puts me down then always says "its fun can u not take a joke" when l tell him he upsets me. he's called DS a thicko and when he asked his dad for a kiss and cuddle he said "u don't go about kissing boys u'll get the jail for that!" I mean wtf?! anyway l told him on tuesday that l want to separate and it didn't go down well. the boys don't know yet till we know better what is happening. I told him I want to try to keep the house purely to make it as painless as possible for the boys but he's doing what he can to make it impossible. We both have lawyers appointments next week. I feel relieved and l know this is what l want and do believe its the best thing for me and my boys but omg do l feel guilty. I know he's hurting and today I went to a BBQ at my brother and sister in laws and l didn't miss him or wish he was there but l felt so damn guilty and such a bad person. He has literally no friends his only social life revolves around me and my family. his mum lives an hour away and his only brother lives in Dubai. it's killing me doing this but i've tried and got nothing back. l don't love him anymore and the thought of him touching me makes my skin crawl but how do i cope with the guilt of ripping my family apart for my own selfish reasons?
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Relief at telling husband I want to separate but guilt is killing me
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Glittergirl80 · 08/08/2020 22:53
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