Just that really. I’m 35 and feel like I am so broken. I have had a mix of two lovely long term relationships in my twenties and then two abusive relationships in my thirties.
One would give me silent treatment day after day. Criticise me. All sorts of nasty stuff. Then the next one had all but married me - talked about all the time - I was later pregnant and he left me to miscarry and call an ambulance alone. I heard nothing from him since other than a few weeks later texting to ask if I was still pregnant and if I was, he wanted to let me know he wouldn’t be there and he didn’t want it.
Then I rekindled a relationship from yesrs back with a man I truly believed was decent and loving. Only to find three months later that he was seeing someone else and she was working abroad. When she came back he ended it.
I try not to think about these things too much as I can’t really believe they happened. I put my heart into these relationships and feel so broken at how I was treated.
I find myself now totally disillusioned and lost about it all. I just want someone I can trust. I’ve had and have counselling. But generally I just cannot fathom meeting someone good, decent, kind, stable and sincere. I’m so hesitant that I worry I’m not opening my eyes to anyone, but maybe that’s a good thing and the decent ones will stand out? I don’t know
Anyone met a good one after some awful times and when you didn’t feel on top form?!
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did you meet a good one after much trauma and sadness?
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amertuo · 05/08/2020 09:29
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