I am currently sat in my car near a park crying, just feeling so overwhelmed with life at the moment.
I've posted about this before but basically DH and I lost our first born in November 2019, she was stillborn at 41 weeks during labour. I took six months maternity leave and then returned to work on a phased return basis on May. I am now working three full days a week which in itself is fine. Except my job is quite stressful and whilst we quietened down during the peak of Covid we are now getting busy again and the work is piling on. I logged on on Tuesday to a couple of extra assignments when I already had enough this week to keep me going. I messaged my boss on Tuesday to say I was at capacity and not to give me anymore. She was fine and asked if she needed to take something off me but I thought i could manage it all OK.
I think I would have been OK except I have also been trying to support DH who is suffering with acute PTSD as a result of losing our daughter. He buried things for a good while, tried to go back to work and normality but it caught up with him and he's now off sick. He's just started therapy but is finding a lot of every days tasks difficult so I'm doing a lot of house stuff. But the big issue is that his sick note ran out on Friday. He requested a month's extension last week and the gp asked for some info from his therapist which I forwarded on yesterday. I've just rung up again to see if the note has been done and it still hasn't. DH is getting chased by his boss for an update and is really stressing out over trying to get this note and having to speak to his boss tomorrow. I'm trying to do all the communication with the GP and I've now rung them 4 times in 2 days about this and they still can't say if the doctor has read the therapist's note. I've stressed this is urgent but they don't care. It doesn't help that we still can't get a face to face appointment. DH is practically uncommunicative with worrying about speaking to his work and getting this note and I am running around trying to sort it all and get all my work done.
I'm also 25 weeks pregnant with what will hopefully be our rainbow baby but it is a very anxious pregnancy on its own without all the other stuff including a load of ongoing investigations into our daughters death. As much as I am trying not to get stressed I feel like screaming right now. After my last call with the gp I just had to get out of the house so I've driven to a park for a cry. I just want to run away and ignore all of this. I genuinely feel like I can't do life right now, it's all too hard. Sorry this is long but I needed to get it out.
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Shefliesonherownwings · 29/07/2020 16:40
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