I am feeling totally lost, deflated. First time posting I don't know where else to turn. have a 6 year old dd to abusive partner (doesn't work, doesn't do housework, doesn't pay bills, has had my car vandalised, the list is endless, you can imagine)I have stupidly found myself here pregnant again to him. My dd has never know a life where is isn't me who works full time and does everything for her. She also knows I am not treated very well. I can't be away from me for long periods except work as a result of this. I have a good job and am a good mum aside from allowing this to have ruled our entire lives even if it might not seem so. I have no idea why I have felt this is the treatment I deserve for the past 12 years. The cycle is awful and the longer it continues the less of a human you begin to feel. Every day is worse. I don't need anyone to make me feel worse than I already do I know how stupid I sound right now to anyone who's probably never found themselves in a situation like this. Since finding out I am pregnant again the instinct to run for our lives and never look back has never been so strong but from all that I've taken I can't help but feel like I wouldn't be enough for my children alone I feel so weak and pathetic, the thought of a life free from this gives me a warm feeling inside. I feel so lost, of course family friends hate him as we've been put through so much over the years which I don't blame them for but feel I have no where to turn. I have made terrible decisions but not with bad intentions.
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