Recently ended 2 year relationship. It was very up and down, some red flags, lots of issues I posted about on here before under my name and other names. Issues caused by both of us really.
I am trying to stay strong and stay away from him, I know it is for the best, and my therapist says I need to break this cycle we had of having big arguments/sort of splitting and not chatting for a while and me usually making the first move going back to him apologising (whether I needed to or not) etc.
However it is hard as he is a very close neighbour, we live in quite a communal kind of place. Yesterday I was working from my home office, could here him outside sitting and having a laugh and chat with our mutual neighbour for quite a while. It just made me low as seems like he doesn't care at all we are broken up? There he is outside chatting away.
Meanwhile I am the one that feels awkward, as I am the "newbie" here i.e. I moved here only 2 years ago, he and the neighbours have been a lot longer, I feel I cannot now go out and have a chat with them, or have a chat with this mutual neighbour who lives in between us, if that makes sense.
I have times where I feel determined to stay away and other times where I miss him and then like yesterday, feeling low hearing him outside having a good time and me inside alone working.
I know it is ridiculous and perhaps all I have is a bad case of limerance. Don't know why I am posting really. Just feels like he doesn't give a shit. Or maybe he doesn't think it is really over and that I will be back round again eventually. Really think he just doesn't care though and perhaps never did. Just feeling sorry for myself I guess, and disappointed as I am not sure he is the person I thought he was, or the "nice guy" that he claimed to be, deep down.
Thanks for listening to my pathetic ramble!
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peachesandoranges · 15/07/2020 12:40
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