When I was growing up I was very aware that my home life wasn’t normal. There were alcohol issues that led to me and my brother having to ring the police on our parents more than once. Always being on edge in public incase one of them got drunk and caused a scene (a parent soiling them self publicly being an example, or a screaming/fighting match with someone that looked at them the wrong way) Constant name calling between our parents and at times directed at me, I was often called miserable and told by my mum that she hates me, but then when situations had calmed this was always denied. An example of this was at 2 am when my mum and brother were loudly playing video games on the tv in our shared room when I had an A level exam the next day at 9am, I asked them to be respectful and let me sleep and this led to the name calling.
Fast forward 14 years and I’m now 32 and have realised that my relationship has some key similarities. My partner drinks to the point that I’m nervous when we go out, he was a mess before the first dance at my brothers wedding and told me he didn’t love me because of how I was being, he’s also broken several limbs while being drunk. At a house party a few months ago he passed out on a sofa and I couldn’t wake him up to get him home and he just laughed it off the next day but I felt humiliated. He flips and shouts at me at home for the smallest reasons, but then denies that he has shouted.
All of my friends that grew up with happy parents seem to now have happy marriages.
Am I destined to be stuck with this as my future? I am saving up a deposit so that I can move out, but part of me thinks that if this is the type of relationship I’m destined for am I best off staying. As much as the incidents bother me, they are every few months rather than daily and I really enjoy the time in between with him.
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minielise · 27/05/2020 22:33
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