Sorry , bit of back story.
I had a EA ex.
I loved this man.
Even though he was a shit to me.
In November 2019 I finally found a shred of dignity (after he was a bigger shit than normal) and moved on.
Very long journey. Long story.
Now I've moved on a little.
Met someone who is lovely. Handsome, sexy, much nicer than ex . I still think about ex quite a lot, but mostly think how lucky I am to have got free, there's no pain there at all. My life has a new calmness and I love it.
Unfortunately ex is related to people in local community, so during lockdown I haven't bumped into him which has been great for me.
Now tonight I've seen his car outside his uncles house which is down the road from me. It made me feel
physically sick. I wanted to see him. (not proud) all feelings for him came flooding back. I'd love to be in his arms. If he called me up I'd be putty in his hands.
What's the matter with me?
He's a shit beyond compare.
I'm much better than that, but I can't trust myself where he is concerned.
Has anyone ever felt like this?
Can anyone tell me why after all my hard work and 6 months I still feel connected to this man?
I'm blocking him, keeping out of his way, I know I just can't see him, but why not?
Has anyone ever felt like this?
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Help, why do I have feelings for my crappy ex???
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neverdoingthatagain100 · 20/05/2020 21:38
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